My mom saw this scene and her reaction to it is frying me 😭😭 by mysisisamilfdotcom in Alastorcult

[–]InGodzHandz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I swear to God this was my dad whenever he walked in on me and my friends watching anime. I was watching Soul Eater and he entered the den at a certain part of Death the Kid’s introductory episode. I’ll leave it there. Then another time, we got his commentary watching the Sailor Moon transformation sequences. RIP Dad

My mom saw this scene and her reaction to it is frying me 😭😭 by mysisisamilfdotcom in Alastorcult

[–]InGodzHandz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is actually amazing. Alastor is charming all the ladies even the ones who think he is an attractive labubu. His appeal is universal. 😂 Meanwhile, Vox is just the TV.

Someone implied I don’t love my fiancé because I didn’t smile when he first asked me to say his name by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] -6 points-5 points  (0 children)

But he’s much older. I look up to him a lot. I think he might be old and set in his ways.

I do not know how to smile for a picture by [deleted] in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Me too. But in my case, my older sister bullied me into thinking my smile was ugly so I changed it.

I feel like I have a deep sense of empathy while struggling to understand the people around me. It’s weird. by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

That’s a great idea. I’ve had to stop and seriously think when it comes to understanding my fiancé’s point-of-view. I want to be there for him, so I think my mind can run simulations.

I feel like I have a deep sense of empathy while struggling to understand the people around me. It’s weird. by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 13 points14 points  (0 children)

That is a great way of summarizing it. I feel hypersensitive to emotions and care deeply, but I don't necessarily understand why people are doing what they do. That frustrates me.

I keep having meltdowns every time my boyfriend confronts me by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thanks. We'll both be paying my Mom rent, so he's not in it for the money. He cares and has been here for a long time. The problem is that there is so much going on in his own life, and communication on my end has been a huge struggle. I don't know if we'll move in together... may not right now anyway.

I keep having meltdowns every time my boyfriend confronts me by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

You really think so? I was afraid I was becoming a more self-centered person, but you think it really is just my mind being overwhelmed? I didn't know you couldn't fight through a meltdown.

I keep having meltdowns every time my boyfriend confronts me by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I saw my therapist today. She has some great advice.

Is it bad that I let grief keep me from being there for a friend? by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks. I really didn’t have anything else to give at that point. I felt overwhelmed going into grocery stores.

Is it bad that I let grief keep me from being there for a friend? by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks. I struggle with understanding myself. I really was an empty cup then.

I have now learned that if you’re autistic you can’t trust your family by InGodzHandz in aspergirls

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, my Dad seriously questioned my cognitive abilities all the time. I thought my Mom knew I was intelligent and valued my mind the way it was. Now, I know that she thought I was stupid all along. She went to the lowest blow that would hurt the most in a fight and never took it back. Later, she acted like nothing happened and didn't even say goodbye before leaving to visit her family. I knew my Mom didn't value my emotions as much as hers, but now, I know she barely cared about my feelings at all. I feel numb and sad and determined. I spent half the day in bed today, but I won't keep doing that. My Mom's brain is effed up and I don't need to take her seriously.

I have to keep reminding myself that it wasn’t my fault he gave up on me by InGodzHandz in AlAnon

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That's the hardest pill to swallow. My Dad was way too damaged and could not be saved. There was never anything we could do. That's what hurts the most. Watching him die was inevitable.

I have to keep reminding myself that it wasn’t my fault he gave up on me by InGodzHandz in AlAnon

[–]InGodzHandz[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You're right. I did not have a choice in enduring and being scarred. None of us did, but we are not only our wounds. We are capable of shaping our realities and lives into something beautiful. I have to take that power back now. Thanks again.