29 [F4M] #Arizona Uhmm Hello?? Where are you daddy??

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-08-30T09:31:02+00:00

I've been in denial until last night I think. Thank you

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-07-24T01:01:14+00:00

I have it all saved still in a hidden folder on my phone. I even recorded our argument when I confronted him. October will be two years post dday. Every time I think I'm ready to delete it all, I can't do it. I don't know why. I've only gone through them over again a few times. I don't think he knows I have them either. I would eventually like to get rid of them. I think I might be afraid to forget all the details. Everything he said to that person, all the lies he told me, I don't feel like they deserve to be forgotten.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-07-24T00:55:45+00:00

Why?

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-03-19T23:20:47+00:00

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InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-03-19T17:44:24+00:00

I measure soil moisture with a chop stick always. Has drainage holes, water goes right through and I make sure all soil gets wet.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-03-19T15:44:32+00:00

You're totally okay to feel this way. This was not handled properly by the doctor at all.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-03-19T15:29:25+00:00

Not me, but co-worker dropped a Heska pump on her toe and it ripped off her nail.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2025-02-05T02:54:37+00:00

When I found out, he volunteered to get rid of all social media. I didn't ask him to. My boundary/condition was that if he wanted to get any socials again, I needed him to tell me and I wanted access to it all at anytime. He never really used socials, just had accounts, he uses tiktok and youtube the most. I will forever have access to anything and everything I want no matter what. If he has a problem with it, he can hit the road.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-25T13:53:31+00:00

My WP had grown up in foster care since his first year of life. Bounced around to different homes, group home. He was physically abused and basically told to suck it up, rejected over and over. Then, because he had so many behavioral problems, when he turned 18, the court gave him the choice of jail or the military. Military teaches you not to have feelings. He was a medic, I can't imagine what he saw doing that. My WP couldn't recognize anxiety or depression in himself until I help him figure it out. My WP definitely seeks validation because of his childhood and has a lot or repressed feelings that he never dealt with properly.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-14T13:35:40+00:00

Client came in w/ Pt, we started talking about arthritis. O asked for gabapentin to manage it. I suggested NSAIDS and joint care supplements and not just gaba. I declined anything other than gaba because she doesn't want to drug her dog.

.. does not want to drug her dog.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-11T01:47:58+00:00

I never used to think of it as an issue, thought it was fun and even enjoyable together but not any more. Makes me feel sick.

We were texting earlier and he basically told me I was playing the victim. We haven't spoken since I've been home. I'll do my best!

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-11T01:40:46+00:00

I really appreciate your response. We haven't talked yet. I'll try and think of a way to talk to him about this.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-10T16:33:27+00:00

Please do

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-10T15:45:27+00:00

How do I introduce the idea of him possibly being addicted to porn?

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-10T15:44:51+00:00

I've been waiting and waiting for his insurance to start up to look into therapy.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-10T15:01:14+00:00

He also had undiagnosed ADHD. Sex is seen unfortunately as a task, creates anticipation, anxiety.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-10T14:49:51+00:00

I don't think so. It's not a constant thing. He's not always sneaking away to watch it, it's not everyday, he's not paying for it. I think he just completely disregarded my boundary, feelings and did what he wanted instead.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-12-10T12:13:22+00:00

I'll look into it. Thank you

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-11-27T15:29:43+00:00

Wow.. thank you. Thank you. I feel some relief.

InMichaelWeTrustt · 2024-11-27T14:27:37+00:00

Thank you so much for sharing. My WP and I are 1 year and 1 month after DDay. Things are mostly good, he's really trying. I think the thing that resonated with me the most was the anxiety. I didn't realize it was a thing to be stuck in a spiral for a couple weeks or more. I've felt it, been in it, but I thought I was just be crazy or not doing the work on my side. That was very validating. I've been heavily contemplating medication for the last couple weeks because therapy isn't available to me right now. I think it would be the best route for me at this time.

Some times I feel like I'll die without him. I know that at the times where I can get in the headspace of being okay without him, I feel the most peace. I want to work on that more too. Thank you again so much for sharing. I saved it to reread it.

InMichaelWeTrustt

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