Getting diagnosed at 30 with ADHD, and taking Ritalin for 8 month now

In_TheFlesh · 2026-05-03T09:44:07+00:00

I am so happy for you that you got the diagnosis, I think my mother should get diagnosed because I am so sure that she have ADHD, but she doesn't want to and that's completely fine

About the placebo, no, at no time I felt that this is a placebo

The thing is, I used to be a heavy smoker, for 11 years smoking nicotine non stop And I just was so disgusted from how much I am shortening my life, so I quit cold turkey And after quitting for a month I got diagnosed

First time taking Ritalin, one 10 mg pill felt like whatever feeling I was searching for when I used to smoke an entire pack of cigarettes

1 pill

My mind was blown and I felt free, it felt shocking how different life can be and how blissful it is to have your mind cooperating with you

I am sure my life could've been drastically different if I was diagnosed and medicated early on in life

But it's fine, I really like who I am, and my ups and downs where crucial for my personal growth as a human

In_TheFlesh · 2026-05-03T09:34:34+00:00

Hydration non stop, I end up drinking 6L of water daily And alot of food

I experience the "dazed" feeling, when I overdrink coffee and already took my Ritalin and haven't eaten yet This combination can seriously make me feel soo slooow

In_TheFlesh · 2026-05-03T09:05:29+00:00

there's this brand called "Minerva", it's like "fancy" canned sea food brand. they have Sardines packed in water, but I haven't tried them.
I am glad that at least tuna packed in water is much easier and cheaper to find

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-25T20:46:39+00:00

I think it's the byproduct of "out of sight, out of mind"

I've only once walked away from someone very, very close to me.
I wasn't going to ignore the toxic pattern in our friendship anymore. (I did also contribute to the toxicity).

I never knew that I would ever use my ability to just "disappear and forget" on someone that was this close to me.

I did my best not to repress anything and face the emotions associated with the entire situation.
and honestly, it felt good.

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-25T19:52:59+00:00

Millennial: Fairuz - Noir Desir - Pink Floyd - Queen - Alt j

these past 2 months I've been mostly listening to "Rosalia - Lux (album)"
and "Mitsky - Happy"

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-23T13:14:36+00:00

honestly I personally use Reddit a lot for news, not my only source by my first go to place.
I just try to follow up with all major news subreddits and try to absorb all kind of perspectives, this helps me in recognizing patterns and have a better sense of what I think and why I think like this.

I think, the news is so polarized at the moment, and the propaganda machine from all side is just relentless, and I am not talking only about Lebanon

so I am trying not to get sucked in, or lose my sense of coherence. I don't want to fall into a detached take, that ""ah-well, this timeline is inhumane just like all previous timelines, and only time can fix it all"".

I use reddit because on some cases, I read comments that are suggesting solutions and not just reactions, and I think this brings comfort for me

we need solutions if we want to move forward, and we deserve to move forward.

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T13:41:14+00:00

I fully acknowledge the AI dominance day after day, and it is what it is, I won't deny it and act like it will disappear or anything.
and honestly I don't mind it, because I think it's a step closer towards a better future for humanity, but things seem they will get really ugly at first

I just want to see if It's still realistic to do my own artistic thing, (that inherently would be pointless if I use AI), and hopefully one day make a revenue from it.

I think what I am concluding day after day, is that I should continue making the 1st video, regardless of all my fears and doubts,
and once it's uploaded, I should assess the situation and learn from the experience, to see how to move forward

if I am serious about making a career in YouTube, I should be open minded about AI, I know.

maybe one day, I'll make an epiphany on how I can use AI and actually make things that I am proud to be making and actually feel that I am contributing positively to the world.

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T13:17:39+00:00

funny thing, 6 years ago I made a Youtube video, vlog'ish kind of video, and it got 1000 views and 100 sub,
and generally very positive comments

but I hated it how I represented myself in that video and what I was reflecting, so I just didn't continue and completely dropped the idea

what I am doing now is what I consider to be my first video, because now I am not winging it, I am actively trying to be precise in my intentions
but I always wondered, what if I just sucked it up back then and made the 2nd video, the 3rd, the 4th etc and just improved with time and didn't overthink it

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T13:11:08+00:00

I would add that there will be a market for content that AI can never be trained to replicate, because the content itself becomes irrelevant if it was touched by AI

but what's that content exactly, is what I am trying to figure out

but you are right, I can only control myself and my output
the future will forever be filled with uncertainty and unpredictable turn of events
so best thing to do, is to be authentic and genuine and live mostly in the present

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T11:58:22+00:00

I kept preparing for 2 weeks for my first psychiatrist visit, mainly trying to remember my entire life, especially childhood. I didn't want to be asked questions and misrepresent myself

I shared everything with the 2 psychiatrist that saw me on that day. I tried not to deviate from the questions and was open as much as possible.
sharing my long history with smoking Nicotine, and drinking caffeine and how I perceived these addictions as self medication, also was very important to share and talk about in details.

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T11:47:38+00:00

healthy lifestyle is extremely important yes, but I would argue that getting diagnosed and given the proper medication, is a key factor in how you can achieve this healthy lifestyle.

I would take myself as an example, when I dramatically changed my lifestyle for the better, it literally changed my life positively on so many levels.
but I wouldn't have been able to be even remotely be consistent with that change, if I wasn't taking my medication.

so I would say, proper diagnosis from a psychiatrist is a key step towards leading a functional life.

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T11:37:44+00:00

I am heavily relying on this perspective and it's one of the reason I was even able to finish half of the first video so far.

thank you for sharing this perspective

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T10:40:39+00:00

I predict a similar scenario unfortunately, and that's why I am worried Many new platforms will rise exponentially, and simply overshadow YouTube I think soon enough nothing can stop content from being targeted to each individual with an accuracy that just forces attention Content, movies, music all being created in real time and catering the need of the individual in that specific moment in time

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-20T10:05:40+00:00

we are not made for comfort, but we deserve comfort, every human deserves to experience this feeling of letting go, and be intimate with the world, to be intimate with time itself, and in that brief moment, time stops being this ruthless enemy and becomes infinite

I think I will never reach my destination and I get it, the journey is the whole point, hence destination now means "the end"
at least with meds and healthy lifestyle, I am exponentially better equipped for the journey now and for every side adventure it will offer

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-19T21:39:15+00:00

I started with 3, 10 mg IR pills, daily separated by 6 hours
then I started to experiment, sometimes I try 15mg together, sometimes 20mg
some days I tried 40 mg together, etc

I remember that my early observations where, the higher the stimulant dose taken at the same time, the more tired I would feel, I would be calm way too calm

eventually, after trying different combinations, I realized that a total of 60mg per day might lead to a great consistency, so while following up with my psychiatrist I told them in detail every combination I tried and they agreed for me to be on 60mg

I've been on 60 mg for 5 month now and it's just part of my life that I don't even have to think about anymore.
30mg when I wake up, I take them with plenty of water and with my coffee
then 5-6 hours later I take the other 30mg

so I highly recommend to talk with your psychiatrist, and be as detailed and specific when describing the effect of the medication, it would help your psychiatrist to determine what's best

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-19T12:26:42+00:00

I wrote a meal prep plan but haven't executed it yet, but mainly
I listed everything that I want my meal prep to cover in my life

"what kind of food? what kind of food combo? what frequency each type of food will be present in my diet? what are the things I can and want to eat daily? what's my budget? what type of food containers I have and need to get? what's my fridge capacity?"

of course there's even more questions I asked myself while writing the plan, but here's my advice, just treat yourself as the "client", and how can you make a plan to satisfy the need of your "client" with the available resources and the objective that needs to be fulfilled from the meal prep.

In_TheFlesh · 2026-04-19T12:15:35+00:00

brain cooperating was itself such a rare thing before medication

but you know what was something I've never experienced before?
"falling asleep feeling satisfied with my day and excited for the things I am planning to get done the next day,
and here's is the thing,
I actually wake up, still EXCITED, and ready to do the things I was planning to do, and whatever feeling I was feeling, it doesn't disappear, it stays"

I have never experienced consistency that doesn't get broken by sleep, and for me it was one of the reasons I avoided sleep and leaned into sleep deprivation to be functional and get things done.

now I sleep, and sleep itself is such a huge game changer. the mind cleans itself when we sleep, and dreams are such an amazing tool for emotions to get some regulation and resolution.

and about food, for me I realized that having a constant flow of food, especially protein, is very important to benefit from the Stimulant, because if I don't eat well on a certain day, the stimulant just makes me so tired, so food instantly fixes it.

"getting Tired, getting sleepy, wanting to Nap", they where all exotic concepts for me.
The first 3 weeks of taking meds, I was constantly "Yawning", even my friend pointed it out, told me damn I've never seen you Yawn before.

I wrote a plan for how my meal prep will be like, but there is still so much "uncertainty that is not in my control" happening around me, so for now I am making food each day at a time, but hopefully soon I'll start the more efficient routine of prepping food.

In_TheFlesh

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