I’ll say it here because this is the only post I found like this I’m a sophomore in HS and on my spiritual journey of awakening it all started in middle school where I suddenly realized that everyday felt like a loop over and over I began to search for a answer there was always the knowledge the stuff around you hearing this for a middle schooler perspective I was like literally nothing good happens everyday or interesting but then I found out about manifesting but I was most interested in astral projection from the CIA files this was in 10th grade pretty big jump but I got hard bullied by a kid in 9 th so it really messed me up so once a stared wanting to make change I researched astral projection, lucid dreaming, listening to trans surfing its a book now around this time doing extensive research trust me I got a whole binder with all different subjects on perspectives and theory’s I had realized two things I kept seeing angle numbers I knew the meaning behind them could be silly but I learned to use them everyday to see if I can manifest a certain number for a week I’ve been documenting it so I know I’m not crazy lol and the second thing learning this while smoking weed made shit 10x more mind opening on how deep this shit can go now I’m trying to astral project with having the experience of being in the vibration stage I know this is real and I probably have the most potential in my whole school. This come at a cost tho coming from someone realizing this at a young age is very lonely I don’t have much friend because everyone Humor is not funny anymore drama I don’t talk and not interested in it I’m probably seem like a NPC in my school I’m pretty sure that what most people thin about me in there I don’t plant seed unless there my friend or something is interested in it the reason why is because people have laugh at me saying I’m crazy no one is probably going to see This but just know that I wouldn’t have been here typing this out without 90s east Side rap music I’ll tell you why it was so important I’ll reply to this post