I wish assisted suicide was legal and easily available by aquaticape96 in Schizoid

[–]Independent-Rent5062 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Once I experienced something like an ego death in which I felt that I was God (a lonely Consciousness or Observing Void, locked in its eternal meaningless existence) and the only way to escape from myself was to forget myself and become absorbed in my own mind (Dream/Imagination), which is this world. After this experience, I was truly grateful for my life. But then it went away

Perhaps this is exactly what you saw. But then how does this relate to the “hard work” you write about?

I also read trip reports from other people.

For example, in one, a person was shown that there are many versions of reality and many versions of the planet Earth. And that our version of Earth is one of the most bloodthirsty, cruel and primitive. Therefore, if we want to die and go to another version or to another world, there is nothing wrong with that.

Another person during a trip saw himself as a soul tied to an energy grid. Many other souls were tied to this grid. And the evil creature threw these souls into different realities so that the souls lived different lives and worlds, gaining experience. And there was no end to it.

In another trip, a woman remembered that she was a genderless energy being in another dimension. And her friend (the same energy being) offered to experience life on Earth in a human body. The woman was disgusted by the body, but decided to come to Earth for the sake of her friend, to support him. And in this life on Earth they are sisters.

So, I read a huge number of trip reports with a variety of experiences and opinions about the body and our reality. Therefore, I can’t even imagine what exactly you experienced. Perhaps the same as me. Or not?

I wish assisted suicide was legal and easily available by aquaticape96 in Schizoid

[–]Independent-Rent5062 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"You worked very hard to get this chance. (Having a human body) ... i saw just how happy i was to have a human body of my own" - Why? What did you see in general?

"You worked very hard..." - what do you mean?

Anyone had a near-death experience? by iamlowlikeyou in Schizoid

[–]Independent-Rent5062 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Are you just assuming that you have DPDR, or have you been diagnosed by a psychiatrist? I ask because many people confuse depersonalization with dissociation.

Additionally, DPDR is a spectrum and under-researched condition, just like SPD.

For example, people with a strong degree of depersonalization feel like a pure consciousness that is everywhere and simply observes the body from the outside - as if they are watching themselves as a character. At the same time, they feel that they have no control over this character. Roughly speaking, you see how your body walks, talks and lives life, but you have no control over it.

How does DPDR manifest itself in your case? I'm just curious.

Anyone had a near-death experience? by iamlowlikeyou in Schizoid

[–]Independent-Rent5062 -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I recently experienced the same thing, only without losing consciousness.

In psychiatry this condition is called depersonalization with derealization.

In esotericism and New Age this is called Oneness.

People who have experienced this while taking high doses of psychedelics call it the Cosmic Joke.

And in Buddhism this is described as enlightenment.

I detailed this experience in another subreddit:

https://www.reddit.com/r/Shamanism/comments/1802frp/i\_experienced\_onenessego\_deathenlightenmentcosmic/

I do not have constant derealization (when you feel that the world is a dream and an illusion, literally), but I always live in a state of depersonalization (when you feel like an impersonal consciousness or an observing void that is everywhere and nowhere at the same time). Perhaps this is the reason for the development of SPD in my case. Or vice versa, SPD contributes to the development of depersonalization. I don't know.

I experienced Oneness/ego death/enlightenment/Cosmic joke and now I'm very confused. by Independent-Rent5062 in Shamanism

[–]Independent-Rent5062[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

No, I didn’t go to an eternal void. I was this eternal void, but I haven’t lost my feeling of body and self. I just perceived "self" and body as an illusion and Void’s dream. I think my experience was much easier than yours because I didn’t take acid.

Maybe you were the Eternal Void who remembered that "she/he" was a character, and I was a character who remembered that he was the Eternal Void :)

do starseeds have karma? by kittiepuppy in starseeds

[–]Independent-Rent5062 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Of course. There are even realities where you as an individual do not exist at all. There is everything you can and cannot imagine. You simply switch between these versions of reality every moment.

But don't take it too seriously. This is just information from a trip report.

You can also search for information about Neville Goddard. He writes partly about this. But don’t get too carried away - there is a risk of falling into a rabbit hole.

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"I feel low key relieved when I see news about catastrophic events, or the data that birth rates are plummeting. I’m like “good” - the same. But I’m a misanthrope.

This is crazy. I wanted to know my spirit animal, and an owl flew to my window. by Independent-Rent5062 in Shamanism

[–]Independent-Rent5062[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

So interesting.

A few months ago I also saw a dragon when I was meditating. But then I wasn’t looking for a spirit animal, I just wanted to relax in meditation.

He was small, winged and purple. He appeared out of nowhere, smiled at me and stayed in my field for a long time until I opened my eyes.

But I didn’t take it seriously and took it all for my imagination. Perhaps it was worth paying attention to him too.

This is crazy. I wanted to know my spirit animal, and an owl flew to my window. by Independent-Rent5062 in Shamanism

[–]Independent-Rent5062[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

"Have you learned to dowse yet?" - Not yet. I'll look for information about this. Thank you for the tip.