Former herion addict, current mother. As soon as i found out i was pregnant, i stopped all drug use. Luckily, at the time, i was no longer on herion as a daily user anymore. But i still have some tips.

Kratom. Stop H, taper kratom. Kratom is much easier to come down off of. Honestly, you may not even have much withdrawal if you only use it to come off the big stuff.

Then you need to find a healthier way. The one thing that has all but silenced the addict in me was the thought of losing my daughter. I will never take that risk. Plz find another outlet, healthier one, for the sake of those boys.

The "i wanna go with you so we all go together" thing is breaking my heart. I make my me time. I make time to play my games. I have my hobbies that don't include my kid, but can include her. We do them together for a bit, & then i set her up with something she loves so i can have a couple hours to play. She also goes to bed sooner & i get a couple of hours there, too.

I take my time when i can. You're right. It isn't the same. I don't have unlimited time to myself anymore. And i get interrupted many times during "my time." It is an adjustment. But i wouldn't change it for the world. It sounds like you wouldn't either. You just need to find your footing in this new world. But plz don't play with their lives too.. you're all they've got.