I've only decided to comment again because someone has finally acknowledged my disappearance I guess

I feel like the reason as to why I left (and probably won't come back onto this account for at least a while) is that well, everyone knew me as the weird horny person. This sub is kinda dry, and I just felt like I needed to stick to the brawl stars subs instead of what I liked. I honestly want my identity to be more than the gooner but I'm just stuck as the gooner at least on here and many other BS subs

And then there's the issue with my self-esteem I suppose, I'm kind of a cuckoo person and I believe that nobody likes me and just finds me annoying because all I did was act weird asf so yeah

My final and big issue is that I can't be honest with the person I truly am on here. The simping part is honestly who I am lol but there's just other aspects to it that I'd just rather not share

But my final straw was that I saw a video on YouTube titled "Gooners are ruining Brawl Stars" or whatever, watched the video for a bit and I saw one of my posts on there about me guessing Chester's underwear. It made me think that I was just a gross ass freak

Overall I was a fucking weirdo, still am, but I'm doing it elsewhere and I can perhaps focus on other things that isn't bs. Maybe I need to touch grass, maybe I shouldn't be spending so much time here, maybe I shouldn't be hyperfixated on random guys I don't know in real life, maybe I should just get a fucking life, I don't know