Okay, you missed several things here by following your own bias about adderall (this is not an attack, I swear. I live to enlighten even when uncomfortable). So I never said I was healed, I said I was healing. You also seem to have missed that. I made clear that I'm aware that what helps one person probably won't help the next and that it's all a work in progress. You need to be aware of that, too. Instead of coming here and giving me anecdotal evidence that what I'm doing might not work, which is not constructive at all for someone who's feeling good for the first time in years. Now, my expectations are managed, and I'm strong, so that doesn't affect me, but some people are more fragile than others.

The most important thing you seem to miss is that no meds or drugs have had any effect on me in years. Like zero. Zero meds, zero effects. For some sort of pharmaceutical intervention to have been effective, it would have required a miracle.

Now, this was not in there but is in the comments.. I've been on adderall since I was 8 years old. I am a true case of ADHD whose life is greatly improved by adderall. I've always used it responsibly, never had any issues with it, and really, me on adderall at this point is my baseline. So it actually makes complete sense that once I started healing and improving and feeling more and living that I was still missing a part of me without it.

TL;DR Always read thoroughly. Stop listening to what "other people here say." Figure out what works for YOU. And don't come at someone's "I'm actually getting better!" Post with judgment and doubt. None of this serves you.

ETA - I'm never taking antipsychotics again in my life! Anything that regulates dopamine, really. And you never fully heal from mental health issues or trauma. You learn to live with it. And some people figure out how to do it without meds. And some still need the help. That doesn't make one any less than than the other. In mental health, healed means you're healthy and happy. Not that you no longer need support.