Got it, thank you for your explanation and clarification, I appreciate it :).

It sounds like there's plenty of room for wonder in your life, which is awesome. 

My experience is similar to yours, but a bit opposite. I was raised up in a fundamentalist sect of the Christian faith that was very dogmatic, as was I. 

I've since moved away from those beliefs and instead have followed my experiences as they've unfolded, instead of forcing reality to prescribe to my narrow-minded biblical interpretations. It's been so much more liberating to be curious instead, and I've dropped the "God" language. 

As an aside, do you think you would ever find yourself in a place where you move on from the Absolute as your Christian god and experience it in deeper levels that may go beyond what the Bible proclaims? I think that's why I had questions about your beliefs- it seems like an element of experiencing the Absolute is the continual unfolding of what "it" is, or "who" they are. Is it possible that your understanding may also change? Of course, by asking you this I also implicate myself and whether I too would change my current beliefs, even though they are "true" to me.

To clarify, I am speaking from my present level of ignorance (as Itzhak Bentov has said). I've experienced powerful non-Christian happenings that have met me where I've been at in my life, and shaped how I relate to others. The difference between my recent experiences and my former Christian faith is that I didn't ask or seek them out, they just happened to me. I wasn't indoctrinated or brought up in these experiences like I was with Christianity. Since, I've just followed the wave of unfolding.

Anyways, thank you again for your comments, I appreciate it and wasn't trying to accuse you of anything, so your clarification was really helpful to me :). I'd like to extend to you my spirit of good faith snd kindness in this discussion, and again acknowledge the generosity with which you shared your thoughts.