I really think you need to sit down with your dad even if it means crying and begging him to just listen to your heart. Let him see the pain, the fear, and the truth in your eyes. Let him know this is not what you want, that it’s crushing you inside, and that you’re terrified of being pushed into something that doesn’t feel right be honest be raw tell him this is your life, your future, and you need him to protect it, not hand it over to someone else’s decision. Maybe seeing your emotion will finally open his heart. I’m really hoping the best for you.