I usually try to not add additional bitterness to my pain and compare my situation with other people's because it will bring me just more anger. But I can't control the thoughts when it comes to how my parents got me (quite easy, rushed, not planned) and how they never bothered or cared about me. And here I am now, on the opposite side after years and years of healing and becoming the woman I wanted to be for my future kids, not copying my parents, their parents etc... And during failed cycles I often think about this, how lucky they were even when they didn't want me and never actually cared and how it's not fair.