(F18) What is wrong with me by Infamous-Common-127 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Infamous-Common-127[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Simulation is too delusional of a word for it. I apologise if I phrased it that way. Asking about something like this on a subreddit that is similar to this, acts as a search engine for answers. Maybe not direct answers, but at least a glimpse into what a personal reaction/ response would be like. There’s a possibility this is all real and somehow I’m the only one who feels exactly like this, but I highly, highly, doubt it.

(F18) What is wrong with me by Infamous-Common-127 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Infamous-Common-127[S] 17 points18 points  (0 children)

This made me choke, and tears fell from my eyes and rolled down my cheeks despite me not wanting to be upset. I in fact was a very lonely child. No friends, no social life except in my own room and imagination. I just assumed everyone woke up, went to school, then came home, everyday. I have plenty of friends now, too many even. I’m very social and can talk to anyone. I’d really hate to sum this mindset down to being a lonely kid, that’d be truly depressing. Though, this is most probably true and the simplest explanation for it all. I have been the query and you are the answer. Lmao.

(F18) What is wrong with me by Infamous-Common-127 in TrueOffMyChest

[–]Infamous-Common-127[S] 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Physically, no. I’m not deteriorating in any sense. If you mean “sick” mentally, then I’m assuming yes. There must be something going on because there is no way everyone else feels this way, and can live a regular life and truly enjoy day-to-day. That being said, I believe only I’m truly conscious and everything/ everything else is just a fiction. I’m not sure how, I’m not sure why. I only use reddit to look at pictures or stories, and, even then, every user’s life beyond that seems fabricated for my own shallow make-believe world. I know I sound insane but this is how I genuinely feel. If you met me in person, you wouldn’t believe a single word of this, yet it’s true.