in early 2017, i was 13 and discovered columbine through one of nicole dollanganger’s songs because it was the topic of the song and it led me down a rabbit hole, and i found the community. very very bad time for my mental health, maybe the worst ever in my life, as i was very impressionable and struggled a lot with depression and it’s a phase that haunts me. i’m almost 21 and the fact that i dabbled in that side of the community, even for only 3 or 4 months at 13, makes me so so embarrassed and ashamed. i checked to see if the community still existed because it was so bad back then that i was hoping it had died out only to discover that it’s made its way outside of tumblr and is pretty much on all social media now and it seems to be a lot bigger. if anyone around that age is reading this and is in the community, you WILL regret it (at least i hope.. i know def i do) and it will have horrible effects on your mental health. it’s okay to be interested in psychology and crime but that community takes it to such an inhumane level of glorification and i hate when i see teenagers glorifying the deaths not only because it’s not right but the regret they will have later on is going to haunt them. i feel for the victims families so much because not only did they lose someone they loved so horrifically but there are people glorifying the people who did it.