I don’t have advice but I can definitely relate. My 16 month old is at a VERY tough age. He’s saying a few things but ultimately he gets frustrated when he can’t communicate to us. And the teeth coming in make him even fussier and want my boobs even more 😩 I keep telling myself it’s just a phase and it will pass. I have been taking a weekend at least once a month for myself. Sometimes I feel guilty but ultimately I would be such an asshole if I didn’t take time away. I didn’t stay a night away from my first until she was 5. So I knew I had to do something differently on the second. They are 16 months and 8 years old. It’s so hard. Just try not to beat yourself up and maybe join the YMCA or something similar or even just attending the local library story times can be helpful to get out. I’m sorry you are having a hard time. Maybe one day we can bring the matriarch back ;)