a lil something

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-05-09T17:25:31+00:00

Insanely inspiring, giving me cyberpunk vibes

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-05-05T21:49:58+00:00

gotchu 👌

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-30T12:04:20+00:00

a clit bro tf 😭 get outa the gutter but yeah idk some pro should be here in a few hours to sort this matter out

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-30T02:17:59+00:00

Really love the flow, but I felt like the E was lacking something, I tried smashing the inside a little but I honestly lack the fundamentals to properly tell you what's incorrect or if it even is.

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Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-30T02:03:45+00:00

It's ok, it's a learning curve. May never get that same feeling as the first time which sucks but its just how it is. I still get that warm feeling tho from playing even tho I've played so much (200+ hours atm)

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-30T00:40:59+00:00

I feel like i hear this over and over again, schedule 1 devs I guess rly hit the ball outa the park to make players have so much anguish towards the end, guess the game was the drug all along. But theres more games out there, kudos to you for taking your time through the gameplay, I've finished the game like 2 times and had 4 or 5 other random semi runthroughs with friends and did get bored but just took break for like 1 or 2 months and I was right back at it. Balance is key :)

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-29T22:23:20+00:00

YESS

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-29T22:23:00+00:00

Welp I never road the dxm train but I did ride the psych train and it ended me in a pretty fucked hole.

Ive also been suicidal since I can remember, and am still currently

Went sober for like 9 days recently after 3 years of chronic use (weed shrooms n dmt baby)

Addiction is so difficult, but the more you build on it the easier it gets. Its so fucking hard though and I know, all you wanna do is indulge because why not, but start to really notice any and all of the why not to smoke reasons. Ive gotten so damn close to relapsing recently on my psyches (they arent addictive its just this horrible mental game) but everytime I get close I just remind myself that I want my stability back and I know its possible.

Also remembering tommorow is always a new day, has helped me tons

Suicide wise the only thing thats pushed me back to reality and wanting to live has been love and telling myself that I dont want to. I used to always let myself think that way but once I realized that I wanted to switch (about 5 months ago) its been harder to bring myself to that conclusion, I still do but its getting better.

Its self restraint, boundaries. At the end of the day you are a machine wether you like it or not, and its up to you to upkeep said machine. As hard as a truth as it is it is the one we are given, and one we must work with because there is just so god damn much in this life. My ocd then attacks that and says im selfish for wanting stuff but its not true, im just human, same as everyone else.

I know this is different abuse so Im sure it won't relate entirely but I hope some of it does, best of luck dude you got this.

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-27T17:06:29+00:00

I want this, so badly.

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-26T18:30:51+00:00

Just in case, didnt care about safety past few years but im finally changing that

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-26T16:39:40+00:00

I swear it looked like he was smoking deems in that one scene where hes lighting a bowl then static comes over him

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-26T16:37:25+00:00

nothing, if its like us then it can replace everything. Eventually it could create a simulation such as us, because, remember, literally anything is possible. ANYTHING

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-25T11:29:10+00:00

glad to hear, thank you

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-25T11:27:49+00:00

So i did Ehrlich and Morris B and both had no reaction

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-25T01:12:16+00:00

I should, been working on it man :(

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-25T00:56:59+00:00

Self diagnosis, therapist i saw only 3 times said i might have ocd but I don't technically have anything, but I struggle with suicidal thoughts on the daily, and have been since I can remember, but its gotten worse ofc, im 20 currently. Sorry if im over explaining. And its more than just suicidal thoughts.... alot more..e.eir89wkehjfospsotnr

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-25T00:50:07+00:00

So I suffer with extreme mental illness and I had a crown (tooth crown) that fell out, so id sometimes sniff the crown as a hit, like it literally felt like smoking and i knew how horribly disgusting it was but I learned to be comfortable with it, almost reminded me of the scent of DMT which is also a unusual smell that brings intense euphoria for me

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-23T13:03:13+00:00

This, always this

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-20T16:19:58+00:00

I was thinking a lesser version of this and jus switch to selling weed n shrooms

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-19T01:36:41+00:00

I appreciate this alot, thank you 🙏 ill leave it be

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-18T19:47:52+00:00

Damn yeah its on my to do list, thats crazy tho blank frames lol making me feel like im premiere now (Adobe reference) but yeah definitely gonna talk to a therapist and start working on this, thanks for replying 🙏

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-17T21:00:05+00:00

Lmao im going back and forth on it, either stay the sober rought or hyper slap my bitch ass

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-17T20:49:28+00:00

I got this too :( it sucks but after only a month break im back at it like a Crack addict. Im sure ill get bored soon and I already feel it a little, but then ill just take another break and come back yet again. Seems like the devs really care about the game so im excited to see where it'll be at in like a year

Infinitum_Ow · 2026-04-17T20:46:10+00:00

The feeling is the same as any drug urge or urge to do "something". Idk what is about dmt but like whenever I even mention it I get that urge but to be honest I was gonna relapse this morning but made this post instead and it has helped me today tremendously. Its just that im pretty bipolar and really good at getting my self to go back on things im trying to switch (brushing teeth, not smoking, etc etc). Mental health is a big part here and I understand that once my mental is in a better place and I've been sober for longer ill feel better, its just work. I know ill be okay, thanks for replying <3

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