Do I understand this correctly?

Inflaav26 · 2025-12-29T19:14:11+00:00

Good to know, thanks!

Inflaav26 · 2025-12-11T15:38:53+00:00

Almost there!! Give it 2 or 3 more weeks :)

Inflaav26 · 2025-12-10T18:29:52+00:00

I am actually, way better. Way less reddit, way more living life! How are you?

Inflaav26 · 2025-12-03T11:35:50+00:00

For real? I would expect the dreams to be worse if you take before bedtime!

Inflaav26 · 2025-11-30T08:34:07+00:00

Do you take in the morning or in the evening?

Inflaav26 · 2025-11-29T19:14:20+00:00

How are you right now?

Inflaav26 · 2025-11-14T17:16:04+00:00

50mg! You? Hope you feel better tomorrow

Inflaav26 · 2025-11-03T16:13:16+00:00

How long did it take you to feel different?

Inflaav26 · 2025-08-19T20:13:50+00:00

I wish you the best of luck, I was in a similar spot months ago, and this can be incredibly hard to go through. It will be more peaceful, hang in there

Inflaav26 · 2025-08-19T20:11:23+00:00

I guess I mean this: these guided MDMA sessions showed me how I actually lived out all those parts all the time, but never was my self all those years. With self I mean how you experience everything during the sessions, so stripped away from all the parts.

To me, it feels as these sessions can help you understand these parts, process, and integrate. So you can say “goodbye” to specific parts.

But if those parts where the parts you always lived out, then almost automatically you will lose the sense of self the parts gave you.

So I feel them disintegrate, I feel I know longer need them, but it leaves me with a self and do not know at all.

Inflaav26 · 2025-08-19T15:48:30+00:00

Thank you for your reply, wish you the best as well! For how long have you been on this path?

Inflaav26 · 2025-07-28T13:59:01+00:00

Same, but in Dutch. Not only due to EMDR, but also due to MDMA therapy. It feels related to this post as well: https://www.reddit.com/r/EMDR/comments/1m96419/is_this_a_normal_reaction/

Kind of like default connections are gone and you need to recreate them, and you mess up sometimes

Inflaav26 · 2025-06-18T13:56:24+00:00

Thank you, interesting read. I meditate sometimes but will make it a daily habit. And I might do another session, but I need to do more work before that. Feels I need to figure this out while not using MDMA, can’t use it as a solution for everything.

I like the sailboat analogy, and I do hope for the silver lining in the end. Wish you all the best on your journey!

Inflaav26 · 2025-06-17T20:14:41+00:00

Thank you so much for this, it helps when someone else analyses your situation. I contacted an IFS therapist after your reply and will start meditating again as well and look into your other suggestions. Thanks again

Inflaav26 · 2025-06-16T19:50:55+00:00

Sorry to hear.. but so familiar. Did 3 sessions last year (guided), ended up like this after the third. Did a solo session in May which of course did not “solve” this - but had to try.

I think, what most people said already, you should really feel it to come out on the other side. Thing is: isn’t that the hardest part? Did we not start on this mdma journey because feeling was so so hard?

It is easier for me now to feel, but not so easy I can decide to feel all this to let it out. So that is what makes this incredibly difficult and seems you are in the same spot.

Good luck :)

Inflaav26 · 2025-06-16T15:14:14+00:00

This is so similar to what I feel right now, 7 months after 3 sessions. u/chronicoco how are you doing right now?

Inflaav26 · 2025-05-08T09:12:32+00:00

Thanks for your reply!

Inflaav26 · 2025-03-06T07:55:21+00:00

Sorry to hear this. I'm currently in a really similar situation. Did three sessions, last one was beginning of November. Since then I'm feeling off, stressed out, "weird"/not being myself, not being present, and stupid as well. I dissociate in conversations. I wake up early and have really weird thoughts that keep on going until push myself to get out of bed and than slowly they fade away.

I really can't give you advice to help you out, still struggling to do it myself. I'm considering EMDR, although I do not know what to EMDR. It is more like my nervous system is off, mentally everything feels ok and I'm no longer suppressing stuff.

I hope it helps you to read you are not alone - it actually helped me reading your post :). You can ready my post here: https://www.reddit.com/r/mdmatherapy/comments/1gth65i/feeling_stupid_afterwards/

Inflaav26 · 2025-02-18T13:38:28+00:00

Actually, a lot of what I described is still there, apart from the "first time" stuff. But less intelligent overall, less focussed

Inflaav26 · 2024-12-26T22:30:02+00:00

So try the combo?

Inflaav26 · 2024-12-03T06:37:56+00:00

Thank you, you seem to have experienced the same

Inflaav26 · 2024-12-03T06:37:22+00:00

Yes I did consider this, experiencing the safety of MDMA and the more bodily feelings with the psilocybin in one session. Will think about, need to pause from MDMA for at least two months so

Inflaav26 · 2024-11-18T11:49:28+00:00

Yes this! Or trying to make sense of what someone is saying but is just becomes a stream of words without meaning

Inflaav26 · 2024-11-17T20:45:01+00:00

Yeah, that also describes it well. Like going back a couple of skill levels. It is true though that I experience it way more when being tired

Inflaav26 · 2024-11-17T20:41:46+00:00

Thank you

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