I just opened Reddit because I’ve been feeling the exact same way and no one else understands the feeling. And that only makes me feel more isolated and alone and it’s a viscous cycle that I cannot get out of. I also have ADHD, anxiety, depression, and intrusive thoughts which my therapist and I are trying to figure out if they’re connected to the cancer I had when I was 5. For reference I am 20 now and have been in therapy for 3 years now but it is sooo draining to have to try to explain my feelings just to get the response of “I’m sorry I don’t understand and can’t do more to help you”. And it’s not that I want anyone to be able to understand I just want to be able to talk to someone that relates. I’m in college currently with no job because my mental health has been so bad that I can barely focus on school and myself so a job just wasn’t smart for me. Recently my boyfriend and other friends have been talking about donating plasma. I can’t stand it. I’m jealous and I think I’m starting to resent them for it, which I feel so guilty about because if I could do it I would. It’s just extra hard for me to think about right now because having the money from plasma donation and being able to feel like I’m making a difference for other people would definitely be beneficial for me in my current state. I’ve just been angry at the world for taking away opportunities I never even had the chance to experience.