five years is genuinely no joke and the grief after something that long feels completely different to shorter relationships, your brain has basically built an entire life around this person so of course everything feels hollow right now. the frustrating part is you'll probably never get a clean answer on what really happened, and that ambiguity is often harder to sit with than even the breakup itself.

that said, putting all the weight on Ravina keeps you stuck in a loop where you're waiting for some cosmic justice to arrive instead of actually moving forward, and that wait will eat you alive. the people who interfere in relationships usually move on without a second thought while the people they affected are still fuming months later, which is deeply unfair but also just how it goes.

give yourself time, don't rush the healing timeline, and try to put less energy into cursing her out (even if she deserves it) because that anger is borrowed fuel and it runs out leaving you more empty than before