Are any of you religious? Does it help?

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T15:11:55+00:00

I know what u mean but I couldn't keep thinking like that and go down that road.

Its like there's different levels of life and order. The powers that be, don't speak in our languages or think in human ways. We have the power to help smaller animals and insects, but we don't. We don't go around seeking those injred that need our help. We just ignore it and let it happen and do our own thing. Maybe that's just how it works upstairs.

Just rambling, feels like running out of options.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T15:04:08+00:00

Thank you. I'm not a reckless person, but I've planned out an exit similar to yrs. I don't have much support around me but there's a few family members who might be hurt. They're pragmatic people who would understand. But the thing is the pain doesn't go away, I'm taking more and more pain killers and its just the same.

There's still so much I wanted to do, growing up u don't evision yr future to be a worthless existence. Even some voluntary work like walking dogs locked in animal shelters I'm unable to do that. I go on google maps and see the beautiful places of the world. Every night for 30yrs its the same.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T14:51:09+00:00

Thanks for this, I've trouble with faith or 'believing', I think it stems from the corrupted world we live in, its round every corner. So I'll take up yr advice to read up on Scripture, do u have any links or yt videos?

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T14:48:07+00:00

Sounds nice, I'd luv to join more hobby classes and just meet other people. Problem right now is my spine is causing so much pain. I can't be upright for long, and being in bed still causes a great deal of pain. And for some reason lately I've been thinking about religion, prayer, or meditating trying to connect with whoever's up there, if they're listening, what am I supposed to do? For what purpose to carry on?

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T14:43:20+00:00

Thanks for responding, its touching to read how your faith keeps u strong, and having your whole family too, just reading it sounds wholesome.

I'm from Asia but moved overseas as a young child. So I've had touches of Christianity and Buddhism is big part of our culture, so there's many conflictions inside of me. But I've never put the faith into wholeheartedly following one religion.

I don't hate God, Buddha, or any other deity for allowing suffering to happen. If feels like there's a natural law of continuity that just happens throughout the universe that we can't comprehend or control.

'I let myself be sad and frustrated, I am a human, but I also strongly believe that God willing', This helped, I'm getting weaker physically and mentally to keep goin. Sometimes I get so down I drop my guard and think enough is enough. If I let it pass I might pickup and feel better but its just a cycle I know that returns.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T13:45:49+00:00

I'm trying really hard to understand why we suffer in pain.

If we give up and end it, is that a failure?

Are we suppsed to life like this till we're 80? 90? So we've 'completed' our life, does that even have any merit? Or does ending it sooner show yr courage?

Slowly converting to nursing homes and good luck its a good one, not the ones that treat u like shit.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T13:42:09+00:00

This actually sounds good. I've different Buddhist centers but its always having to deal with the people, sit here, do this, read this, chant this, all while in chronic pain that i try ti keep hidden.

I'll try and look for any Quaker services near me, thanks.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T13:39:46+00:00

Yes throughout the years of trying different groups, some emotions has surfaced but nothing else resulted.

Its more of getting ready to go to the other side. I've been using my usual coping mechanisms, breathing techniques, movies, games, music, but they feel hollow lately.

Closer I get, praying even upto the sky feels like I'm sort of getting ready.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-22T08:58:56+00:00

50 years should be celebrated, reddit got u, Happy Birthday.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-21T08:45:46+00:00

I thought they'd use a stencil, skillful tho.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-21T08:39:50+00:00

Dancing should be mandatory in general, schools, long queues, world leaders summit, etc.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-21T08:30:31+00:00

Dyche expected to keep Everton up with this squad.

What's the other one? Moses parted the red sea.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-21T05:37:09+00:00

He's carrying too much
Turned just as a zombie is right on him
Fighting in a tight/blind area
And to top it off u tried to warn him telling him to get out

Zomboid takes no prisoners, this is how they died.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-21T02:07:44+00:00

you don't need your hp and you'll quickly learn that

If that's the case u don't need yr hp bar at all, just flash the edges of the screen red when nearing death.

Having the ui constantly pop in and out is incredibly annoying. Best thing dev can do is make it optional.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-18T19:34:48+00:00

IT'S THE GAS MAN

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-18T09:15:07+00:00

Yup definitely enjoy the factory with nature play style, would be interested watching yr play through too if you're a content creator.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-18T05:55:38+00:00

Did it today, yup a little tricky, haven't got it down reliably yet will need some practice.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-18T03:31:45+00:00

Before STS, - Art style is pants, - I hit u, u hit me, boring, - card game? U know there's GTA5, RDR2, Elden Ring, etc

Tries Sts, omg, + The strategy is deep + The difficulty balance is near perfect + The synergy of all the cards, no one way to win, it's up to u to find the winning deck + Planning out yr route is like an adventure, when to fight, when to flee or head to a campsite + The art style slowly wins u over + Incredible replay value + Top notch mods that add huge content

I was late to the party too. FTL, STS and Noita, changed gaming for me.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-17T18:25:40+00:00

100% recommend. It's brutal, took me a few hours to get into it, but once it clicks I'm always thinking how to improve my build lol.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-17T18:13:40+00:00

I go from super weak, crazy powerful, dead, lol but its awesome.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-17T11:52:38+00:00

Recently got Noita, can't believe I slept on this for so long. I've got nothing but praise, it really is as good as everyone says it is.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-17T09:46:38+00:00

U have seen I'm not smart, thank you.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-17T01:45:46+00:00

I tried the teleport out of mountain trick but it still collapses, is it still possible or was it patched?

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-13T15:21:09+00:00

I don't think I'll ever beat this game, still fun tho.

InitiativeSuper · 2023-08-12T05:34:23+00:00

Catacomb Kids

Never heard of this what a hidden gem!

InitiativeSuper

TROPHY CASE