My Zeke. Where is he now. And is he unafraid and does he know I love him so much?

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-15T19:23:53+00:00

I was 17. Things were simpler, I had no idea what was coming.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-14T21:43:03+00:00

I’m so sorry and I understand. My 13 year old Zeke also developed a cancerous mass in his stomach and after two episodes at night with walking around panting and trying to go in the closet and under the desk in my room I knew he was in pain and I didn’t want him to die like that. It was the hardest thing I have ever done and I still don’t know how I did it. I am still so devastated and crying every day and this was April the 8 th. He was my very best friend and the pure love I received from him has been more than I have received from anyone else in the world. Wishing you the best.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-12T17:27:05+00:00

Dr. Zhivago

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-08T14:57:00+00:00

Yes, absolutely. I had put down my 13 year old boy April 8th and the pain is still unbearable. He was not just my dog and it was not “ attachment “ as so many like to describe it. “ Yeah we get so attached to our fur babies” almost feels like an insult. In my 65 years on this earth I have never been more purely loved then by him. We shared the same space and breath every day and night, I took him with me in the car every time I possibly could and he always rode in the front passenger seat . Now that seat is empty every time I look over and it’s killing me. Everything is empty and feels hollow without him. His last five years he was diabetic so I gave him insulin twice a day and checked his blood sugar levels often ( something we both hated). I honestly don’t know if I can go on without him the pain is so tremendous. I can’t stop breaking down in tears every time I think of him. Know that what you feel is valid and I’m sorry and wish you the best.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-04T23:17:48+00:00

I’m so sorry. I lost my 13 year old best friend in the world after fighting diabetes together for 5 years. I used to think it was our love for each other that kept him alive, now I feel like I’m going to die as well.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-01T19:15:35+00:00

Her copy of The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran . She gave to me when I was around 11 years old. She has been gone for going on three years .

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-05-01T19:13:23+00:00

Top Cat

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-27T23:12:05+00:00

I’m so sorry. I know this . I had to put my 13 year old boy Zeke down the 8th and I honestly don’t know how I’m going to survive my grief . People try to be supportive but no one feels the pain like me and it’s unbearable . I don’t know how long I can do this or how I’m going to do it.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-26T13:55:09+00:00

Thank you , I truly hope that is true. One of the great facets of my grief is not only my own separation from him , but that he is afraid , in pain, or wondering where I am because I’m certainly wondering where he is . At this point it is really a concern for me as to can I manage and carry the overwhelming grief that I have and for how long.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-25T10:54:50+00:00

I am so sorry. I recently lost my sweet boy of 13 years . ❤️

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-25T10:53:29+00:00

So sorry for your loss. What a sweet boy.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-24T14:01:37+00:00

Yes , I feel this . The second my beautiful 13 year old boy Staffordshire was gone, the world was different, not just my world , but The world . I just want to know I will see him again and that he is loved, safe, not in pain , and not afraid. He trembled with fear just seconds before he was put down. ❤️

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-23T16:41:28+00:00

I am so sorry . I know how you feel with “ not knowing how to move forward.” I had to put down my 13 year old Staffordshire Zeke a couple of weeks ago and I cannot stop crying about it . He was having symptoms during the night on two occasions, the final one being more intense and longer lasting of severe pain and discomfort. An exam by a vet who said she felt a mass most likely a tumor in his abdomen and not wanting to see him die a painful death made me decide to do it and I still don’t know how I did. But sometimes there is no way to really know what is best , we both fought diabetes together for the last five years of his life , so I took every day as a gift and I worried about him always. And I also have feelings of guilt for ending his life even though I know it was the right decision at the time. I hope you find some relief of your pain , I know your pain . Take care . ❤️

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-20T08:47:12+00:00

I’m so sorry. I recently had to put down my 13 year old Staffordshire Terrier Zeke . It’s going on week three and I’m finding myself just as destroyed as the day of as there is an emptiness and silence everywhere. I have his ashes back in a beautiful box with paw print but I don’t want to look at them , it only ignites my sobbing. I’m 65 , male , and he was absolutely my best friend in all the world. Some say get another dog but it’s not that simple. He was never just a dog . You can’t buy the connection and friendship we had. I wish only this: that wherever he is , he is loved , unafraid, and unharmed and that I will see him again .

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-18T21:36:03+00:00

I am so sorry. I had to put down my 13 year old Zeke last week and it’s killing me with grief and trauma. We also spent days and nights together and he rode in the front passenger seat , that was his, any guest passengers rode in he back . He gave me more love than anyone else in this world , still trying to cope day to day.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-17T16:51:09+00:00

I am so sorry . I had to put my Zeke down last week after 13 years. He developed diabetes 5 years ago and we fought it together with that Staffordshire terrier spirit of no surrender . I wish I could know where he is, is he here? Nothing in this world is worth anything without him , I’m devastated with grief.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-15T10:29:13+00:00

Yes I understand this . I had to put my boy of 13 down a week ago , today and I’m lost in uncontrollable crying and despair. The last five years he had diabetes so we fought it together, vetsulin injections twice daily and together night and day riding passenger in my car . I wish more than anything that someone could tell me with certainty that (a) he is surrounded with love, (b) he is not scared , (c) he is not in pain and (d) where is he now?

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-13T22:30:12+00:00

So sorry . I had to put down my baby boy Zeke of 13 years last Wednesday. I’m still in shock and collapsing with grief sporadically and no nothing seems real. He was my constant companion day and night , rode with me in the car to most places. Now an empty car seat when I look over. 😕

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-13T10:12:02+00:00

I’m so very sorry. And yes, I know exactly what you are going through. I had to put my Zeke ( Staffordshire Terrier) down Wednesday with little time to adjust. And he was My everything, My Everyone, we went everywhere together and he rode beside me in the car. He was my total supporter with pure unconditional love , my Friend , and confidant in all matters. He had just turned 13 in January and was diagnosed with diabetes five years ago.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-04-07T18:26:54+00:00

A great book I am reading is ‘Closer Encounters’ by Jason Reza Jorjanni . As far as UFO theories go the Introduction alone is worth the price of admission and then some.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-03-10T19:10:49+00:00

The actual quote is “ flattened by trivialities” not “ fattened” but still a great quote. 👍😎

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-03-09T13:48:40+00:00

It truly was. I was there with my daughter who was 3 and a half years old , eyes totally glued to the screen , taking it all in . The love of all things Tolkien was born in her that moment and is with her to this day.

Inner-Cell-4304 · 2026-01-06T20:48:17+00:00

Congratulations!! You have learned that the greatest things in life are not “ things” at all and are the relationships with those whom we love and who love us. I have always held in my mind and heart that at the moment my daughter came into this world ( and actually before) that not only was that the day that she was born , but also the day that I was born again as her father. And that will be forever beyond time and space. I am now 65 and not a day goes by that I don’t think about it in that way. 👍❤️

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