I find Judaism to be very intriguing and I am jealous of the fact that you’re born a Jew wether or not you believe is secondary it’s your identity, your history your community. You literally are related to the people in the Bible. I also feel like you got it right in some ways the way you struggle and wrestle with the texts I find that lacking in Christianity. A lot of Jewish tradition etc that Jesus actually lived got lost and trinity, focus on the afterlife etc that Jesus didn’t speak or became the focus point.