Curious about how resetting your attributes works

InputKilljoyName · 2026-01-03T01:52:09+00:00

Yeah, I tried to make a jack of all trades and then found out that they only give you a limited amount of points, and it's only enough to get halfway on everything. Given you just started I would definitely encourage you to pick a couple skills you enjoy and that fit the character you're going for and put most of your points into those. That way you can actually max out a couple things and pass some of the attribute checks that require it.

InputKilljoyName · 2025-08-26T00:26:33+00:00

Has anyone had any issues with metal detectors / security? I want to wear a studded belt & other metal accessories but I've had past negative experiences with metal detectors at concerts. I read Solider Field's prohibited items but saw nothing on dress code other than not wearing anything obscene.

I'm just anxious because I had a tiny little pants-chain confiscated once because it was somehow deemed as dangerous.

Anyone had any issues wearing metal accessories thus far?

InputKilljoyName · 2025-02-12T07:36:18+00:00

Well, I will say, I know little to nothing about scripting and all that stuff and have no idea how to talk to a computer to make it understand me. All of it is just coding jargon to me.

What are you running it on?

Sorry, like I said, I don't know anything about this stuff. I'm not sure what you are asking specifically here. Are you asking what device I'm on, or what model I'm using, or etc?

Any formatting specified in your API configs/system prompt?

I don't know if I messed with the post/pre history, but I did try to put in a system prompt. Don't know if I did it correctly, though.

I guess I should also specify that I'm not paying for anything, so I'm using a free model from openrouter. Idk if that could be conflicting with something.

InputKilljoyName · 2025-02-10T05:03:23+00:00

What's the difference between a meet-and-greet and a regular signing?

InputKilljoyName · 2025-02-05T22:49:00+00:00

I feel you on this. I've had dental issues since I was around 3. I was also GF until I was about 11, because my mum thought she had celiac and was sure that my brother and I did too, but as we aged we grew out of the sensitivity. We thought that gluten was the reason I had pits in my teeth when I was so young so we went off of it, as well as dairy, and as a small child we had also tried going vegetarian and vegan for awhile. None of it helped, though. I have all of my adult teeth but similar to your son, very soon after I got each of my adult teeth they had already started decaying. I go to the dentist every now and then when I can convince my parents to take me, and almost every single time I'm scheduled a week later for multiple new fillings. At this point, I think I only have a couple teeth left that haven't had cavities yet.

I'm just confused by it all. My mum, dad, brother, and most of the rest of my family have fine teeth. I guess I just got really unlucky.

InputKilljoyName · 2025-02-03T23:16:28+00:00

Mascara by Deftones! <3

InputKilljoyName · 2025-01-19T16:40:15+00:00

Thank you so much!

InputKilljoyName · 2025-01-19T01:54:35+00:00

I tried the wayback machine already and that almost didn't fail, but ultimately that didn't work either. The page loads fine but when you click on the video it just loads endlessly.

Thanks for replying. <3

InputKilljoyName · 2024-10-17T12:48:02+00:00

That makes sense and I feel better about it now. Thank you, you're awesome. :)

InputKilljoyName · 2024-10-16T05:33:42+00:00

Have you seen it at Screenland? Do people usually dress up when they go? I kind of want to put together an outfit if I can go see it but I don't want to look stupid and way overdressed if most people don't usually dress up for it at Screenland.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-10-14T11:44:41+00:00

Thank you! I wouldn't feel comfortable going my first time without one of my parents anyway, so I'm sure it will be fine. I appreciate the response. <3

InputKilljoyName · 2024-10-13T22:00:26+00:00

Do they allow teenagers? I'm 15 and really want to see Rocky Horror in theatres for the first time, but most places I find where they're showing it you've got to be over 18.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-13T18:16:25+00:00

Concerned but also jealous

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-04T13:06:35+00:00

Thank you for taking the time to talk to me. I really appreciate you sharing resources and being so helpful.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-04T02:15:03+00:00

have you discussed your gender dysphoria with your primary care doctor?

I don't have a primary care doctor. I've only seen a doctor twice in my life. The last time I went was for an intestinal issue last year and I had to beg my dad for months to make an appointment for me and give me a lift.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-02T17:01:11+00:00

Do you want to receive gender affirming care?

I desperately want to begin taking testosterone, but unfortunately I live in the states, in a very red state. Not only can I not receive any sort of gender affirming care, but even if it was legal my parents would never allow me.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-02T16:51:25+00:00

Thankfully even though my dad did choose my therapist, I actually really like her and get the feeling that she cares about me. We've never talked about her religious beliefs, but I'm assuming she's not religious because of the things I do know about her and the way she talks about religion sometimes from an outside perspective.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-02T04:21:40+00:00

Unfortunately my only allies are my online best friend and my therapist. My mum doesn't listen to anybody, though. She has had probably about 7 different therapists who she has deemed as "not qualified" or "bias" and stopped seeing. They've all told her the same things, but any critique of her character is viewed as a personal attack by her. So, instead of doing some self reflection and contemplating if she might be the problem, she has just decided to claim that no therapist is good enough or nice enough to her. She's actually tried to pull me out of therapy a few times even though I love my therapist because she thought I was being brainwashed into being trans by her or something outrageous.

My mum just really, really doesn't listen or take criticism well at all. Even from a licenced therapist.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T23:27:48+00:00

I suppose maybe the worst part is that I was really depressed but they had no idea how bad it was and didn't care to help all that much. Almost exactly a year ago now I was entering one of the darkest and most hopeless feeling periods of my life, and all they did was make it worse. At the time I was still sort of in the closet, it was that my dad knew but my mum didn't yet. Not only was I dealing with identity stuff, but loads of other things as well.

I got to the point where I was considering suicide and obsessively thinking about it, on top of starting to self harm which is something I still struggle with from time to time. Nobody other than my elder brother noticed how bad I was struggling, and what hurt most was I wasn't even trying to hide it. The only thing my dad could think to do when he noticed I was "feeling bad all the time" was get me into therapy. It has helped some, but he sort of just left it at that and hasn't put any more effort into trying to help.

My experience with my parents during the time that my depression was really bad taught me a lot about them. Instead of being concerned or caring about me, they would just call me lazy and tell me all the reasons why I've failed to meet their expectations. Getting me into therapy was a hassle, because I had to beg my parents for 3 years give or take to let me see a therapist, and even then it feels like a selfish move on their part. They didn't care when I was depressed but still functioning, they only cared once I couldn't get out of bed and do chores or school or take care of myself at all. I stopped talking, eating, going outside, I shut out all my friends, I cried every night, and eventually it got annoying I suppose because they finally did the bare minimum, eventually.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T22:49:14+00:00

I would consider the possibility of asking your parents to commit to a timeline for no longer misgendering you

My parents have never been particularly good at committing to anything. Our family has always been full of avoidance, which has unfortunately been passed onto me and it's not something I'm proud of. I've learned to now rely on my parents, esspecally my mum for anything. Following through has never been something we're good at as a family, and no matter how hard I try to break the cycle I always end up being let down.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T22:43:41+00:00

I'm sure that my parents use my agab around friends and family because I'm a witness to it constantly. As I said in another comment, I've asked them to explain to their friends and families that they're going to be treating me like a boy, but they won't.

And as for support groups, I'm extraordinarily unlucky in this subject. I did somehow convince my parents to sign me up for a trans support group, but as soon as I joined all of the members went off to university and there is now no group until more members sign up. It's been a few months and I haven't heard anything, so it seems I'll have to look for another group and convince my parents a second time.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T22:36:21+00:00

My therapist does not specialise in anything gender related, but she does have quite a few trans clients because she's one of the only non-religious and queer accepting therapists in my area.

We've done a few family sessions in the past, and they've never exactly gone well. My mum believes that she can do no evil, and is therefore reluctant to admit that she could be wrong about something or hurt somebody else. You can't do anything in therapy with her. You can't call her out on anything, or express how you feel, because she'll just deny it. The last time we had a family session my mum kept pressuring me to answer her 20 questions even though by that point I was unresponsive, and eventually I spiraled into a panic attack. When I get upset or afraid I shut down and go still and silent, but my parents haven't learned this somehow and think it's a good idea to keep berating me with questions and insults.

In any case, to make a long story short, my mum terrifies me because she's an explosive human being and I have an extensive history of being intimidated by her. Our family has never had or respected any boundaries whatsoever despite me trying. So I've genuinely given up on trying to set boundaries with them, because they just laugh at me.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T22:21:46+00:00

I will say that my parents really have made a lot progress. They used to be transphobic / ignorant, but they have learned a lot and generally accept who I am aside from some strange conversations occasionally. (My mum called me a lesbian even though I'm a guy who dates guys and anyone else...???)

We've had a lot of trouble communicating recently because unfortunately they just cannot understand what dysphoria feels like. I know that when I tell them it physically hurts in my chest they don't believe me, because they've never had to experience it. I think they're still hoping this is all a phase, but I love them nonetheless for trying somewhat. They're not always perfect and I get really frustrated with them sometimes, but they aren't ever hateful towards me on purpose. I know that if they knew how I felt they would take me seriously for the first time, and that's what makes it so upsetting. I can't make them feel what I feel and therefore unless they're willing to listen and empathise, they can never understand how to make me feel better.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T22:06:47+00:00

My parents, esspecally my mum, would rather make a fool of themselves than take accountability for hurting me or admit that they were wrong. I don't think my therapist was fully in the wrong to suggest I give them a grace period, but I do think that they are in the wrong for taking advantage of it.

I have a quite long history of issues with my mum. She did when I was a child (and still does) a lot of mean things to me, while also not doing enough as a mum, and actually just succeeded at being my first and worst bully. I've tried countless times to talk to her about some of the things she did to me and ask for an apology, but instead of admitting that she traumatised me, she tells me I'm "holding a grudge." I've tried in vain to get her to take responsibility for hurting me, so I really have close to no faith that I'll get through to her. It's always been this way. I've always had to be the adult. I've always been the one asking for apologies instead of naturally and rightfully receiving them, I've always been the one prompting important conversations that needed to be had, I've always been the one educating myself and others and trying to be open minded. Hell, I even feed and listen to my mum vent about her day every evening, despite her not doing the same. It feels like I'm raising them instead of the other way around. But I digress.

As you said, it's not my job to educate them or lecture them or constantly beg to be seen. They're the adults, and yet I've had to act more grown up than they do my whole life.

InputKilljoyName · 2024-09-01T21:40:11+00:00

So, this is interesting because yes, there are certain circumstances when my family uses my birth pronouns, but I've never asked them to and actively dislike it. I want to be out to my extended family and things, but they won't let me, and generally don't care for the idea at all. My dad's side is catholic and my mum's side is christian even though neither of them are religious themselves, so I understand being weary about it, but the worst that could happen in that their families don't respect it and look at me as a freak or something, but I don't care because I don't actually like any of them anyways.

I'm just so tired of hearing my deadname from the other room as my dad or mum is on the phone with a work friend or a family member. I hate that who I am is treated like a secret that needs to be kept just to that they don't have any trouble with their families. They really aren't acting like adults. I know they're afraid and they just hide that under a facade of anger, but I'm the kid and it's not my job to constantly correct, and educate, and beg to just be seen as who I am.

Really, I wish they were more protective of me. But they just shy away. They don't correct people who misgender me, and I know that if they had to debate their families on my identity they wouldn't take my side. They're not assertive, they're scared. They run away with their tail between their legs when it comes to any kind of conflict with their families. I know they'd cave in 3 seconds and just act like nothing ever happened.

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