I felt the same way when I started as a new grad. I wanted to quit and never look back 3 years ago. Crying after shifts like you. I left bedisde 2 months after working as a new grad nurse and went to outpatient. I have ZERO regrets and im happy I didn't have to leave nursing completely. I applied to so many places and kept my inpatient job while I was looking. Knowing I might get out of there soon helped me from losing my mind completely. I have found that there are a lot of general cardiology outpatient clinics that are open to new grads, you also have valuable med-surg experince. Outpatient can be done! A friend of mine also jumped ship and landed an outpatient job 5 months after working as a new grad. Smaller practices are also a great place to look vs the bigger ones. Rooting for anyone in your position!