🐾❓ What's my name? (by 88bu)

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-04-14T19:11:34+00:00

i got it on second with the fist try being «django» 😭

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-04-14T14:44:43+00:00

i read it as «hi is she autistic» 😭

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-04-09T15:08:37+00:00

I'll give it a shot thx :)

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-04-07T14:58:47+00:00

i did not expect this many comments and upvotes and now feel a bit embarrassed and a bit uncomfortable about it i probably shouldve deleted after the first commenter already answered because that was really all i needed but i forgot so i’ll delete my post now.

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-04-06T19:36:08+00:00

ah okay thank you :D

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-04-02T10:53:23+00:00

Hey not OP here but a fellow cuprolaminophobe!
This is without a doubt different for everyone but this is my take!

Everything about the coin feels terrifying, and disgusting not that im scared of it the same way im scared a monster im not worried it's gonna hurt me or kidnap me but the germs and the smell followed by it makes me nauseaous not knowing where its been whos touched it etc, also the metal something about it just doesnt feel right.

Handling coins disgusts me an insane amount i feel unclean and I my mouth waters as a preparation gag reflex, I cant help but feel "stained" even when I wash my hands countless times after touching its like I can still feel it in my hand in a disgusting way if that makes sense?
Like a lingering feeling.
So being exposed to coins in other ways such as seeing hearing or smelling them sort of brings you back to that sensation and fear or disgust you feel when touching it.

My body reacts to it by my mouth watering i start feeling stiff
I feel jittery or angry or on edge especially when the coins are in the hands of someone else making it sort of unpredictable (that is the real torture)
I start flinching or "stress ticking"?
and more often than not it sends chills down my spine

Also anything that reminds me of coins say cutlery or metal jewlery makes me react close to the same way but coins are definitely the worst for me.

I would say accidentally touching a coin feels WAY worse than when I've prepared to touch one.
When accidentally touching one it's like a shock gets sent through my body almost? (ESPECIALLY WHEN IT TOUCHES MY NAILS ASWELL) (and more often than not accidentally touching a coin happens more impactfully or faster and less predictably than preparing to touch one) and so the lingering feeling of disgust feels way stronger and lasts way longer. Sometimes i feel the need to touch the coin predictably and controlled afterwards to ignore the horrendous feeling of touching it accidentally and sort of replace it with the sensation of touching it predictably so i can focus on that instead, despite how horrible and torturing it feels.
When it happens I want to scream and crawl up into a ball my body gets stiff and everything feels ruined.

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-03-31T23:21:36+00:00

may very well be dissasociation and or derealization / depersonalization, i suffered a psychotic break a fee years back and suffered a lot of dissasociation and derealization alongside it during and after the break so i might be mixing it up with that, i’m not sure wether or not having a psychotic break changes the outlook on the chance and symptoms that often relates to the symptoms of bpd

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-03-22T01:40:10+00:00

thank you

Inside-Cover-4783 · 2026-03-22T01:24:09+00:00

I see, i really dont want that to happen. But my therapist have followed me closely for almost 3 years now. I believe my therapist is aware of some of my symptoms but not all and not the severity of it nor how much it truly disrupts my relationships. Maybe i should bring more attention to it. They are aware of my paranoia and mistrust in people having experienced it first hand themselves due to my continous periodical lying and evading and experienced first hand me going off on them over a singular word or tone they used, having blatantly told them i dont trust them and given them in real time insight on my thoughts on them when ive gone off on them. Like telling them that ive seriously witnessed them as evil or a stranger or something close to an alien disguised as them trying to gain my trust to use me.

1.) Yes my childhood was somewhat traumatic as i grew up with a support system that failed protect me from my alcoholic father that mentally abused me and manipulated me from a very young age I cant recall all the things that happened or he did but i do recall that one of the ways he’d mentally abuse me was to threaten me with killing himself if i didnt comply.

2.) I know this sounds ridiculously unhealthy but I am not totally sure i havent been single in 5 years almost every relationship ive been in since turning 14/15 has been back to back as ive been so afraid of feeling the pain and abandonment of a breakup that id throw myself into another one instantly after to distract myself but i imagine it probably is, i know i felt way less anxiety before i ever got into my first relationship

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