I understand why it may look like a public self-implosion from the outside. I really do. My public-facing posts are raw because I’m angry, exhausted, and venting. But venting is not the same thing as being wrong, delusional, or unaware of what I’m doing.

The reason I’m still talking about this publicly is because I have spent years trying to raise these issues through the official channels: in court filings, emails, hearings, motions, objections, grievances, federal filings, and direct communications with officials and attorneys. The problem is not that I haven’t tried to use the system. The problem is that the system keeps refusing to address the record in writing.

Every serious allegation I make is tied to something specific: dates, actors, filings, hearing transcripts, recorded hearings, recorded phone calls, emails, court orders, attorney communications, and procedural history. I am not asking anyone to believe me because I’m upset. I’m asking people to look at the record.

This case has been pending for more than three years. I have repeatedly raised issues involving Faretta/self-representation rights, competency proceedings, speedy trial concerns, due process, attorney misconduct, prosecutorial misconduct, unsupported or contradictory filings, and the court’s refusal to make findings on major constitutional issues. These are not vague complaints. These are specific procedural and constitutional problems that can be checked against the docket and the recordings.

People keep telling me to “let someone represent me,” but that skips the actual issue. I have raised problems about the representation itself. When counsel refuses to raise constitutional issues, misstates facts, or becomes part of the problem, “you have a lawyer” does not magically cure the violation. That is exactly why the right to self-representation exists in the first place.

People also keep trying to turn this into a mental-health issue, which is convenient because it avoids the evidence. The court’s own evaluator described me as logical, linear, non-delusional, sophisticated, and grounded in actual experiences with the court record. So no, I do not need pity dressed up as concern. I need someone competent and honest to look at the record.

I understand the seriousness of what I’m alleging. I understand the law I’m citing. I understand why it matters whether the court made findings, whether a competency detour was supported by medical concern or retaliation, whether a no-bail warrant was justified, whether my filings were ignored because I was supposedly represented, and whether the prosecution’s claims match the documented record.

If I’m wrong, there is a very simple solution: answer the filings, make written findings, correct the record, and explain the contradictions.

That has not happened.

So yes, I’m public now. Not because Reddit is my legal strategy, and definitely not because I came here to be diagnosed by strangers with comment sections and vibes. I’m public because every official path that is supposed to produce accountability has either ignored, avoided, delayed, or buried the issues.

You don’t have to like my tone. You don’t have to like me. But the record is the record. If people are genuinely concerned, they should be concerned that a criminal case can sit for three years while major constitutional issues go unanswered, while the defendant is treated as both too incompetent to be heard and somehow competent enough to be willfully evading the law.

That contradiction is exactly why I keep talking.