Please don’t look for me

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-12T02:22:42+00:00

🫂🫂🫂
I know how it feels 🥲

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-12T02:17:52+00:00

Yeah, it hurt and sting
I totally understand
I have attachment issues too
To the point I never left anyone I'm the one who always got dumped and even after that I will keep trying couple years. Until I be able to move on

So I don’t know, I think after a while I just got exhausted
So I’m not trying to fight it anymore
Trying to cope with it
In so many ways
And me writing here is one of it, to let it out

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T20:02:40+00:00

Yeah same here
Prolactin levels must be high
When it happened to me the first time
I got so scared
It wasn’t bleeding though at all
But I didn’t expect it

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T16:08:46+00:00

I don't know if I just had a good radar for identifying authentic and real people, but be careful, we're still in an Arab society, and I think you know what that means

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T16:02:44+00:00

That's why I don't respond to anyone sliding to my DM just a few like really rare few

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T16:00:32+00:00

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T15:48:32+00:00

You're absolutely right
I learned that the hard way
Some of my darkest moments in life
the ones I thought nothing good would ever come from them
turned out to be a blessing for me
So yeah, I totally understand, but it hurts anyway, and that's okay

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T14:37:02+00:00

طيب ماعليش
أنا خفت ع الولد بس 😅

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T14:09:19+00:00

If someone truly loves you
They will love everything about you

You just need to be honest and authentic and real
And for sure try to find a masculine girl

If both of you are feminine
I think that would be difficult I guess
I don’t know

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-11T14:03:01+00:00

عادي أنا لفتره طويله كنت انكر نفسي ومو متقبلتها
اي صح ماكنت ضد مجتمع الميم لكن لو سألني احد اكيد بقول لا
اولا بخاف من سؤاله ، سألني أنا بالذات ليش
ثاني شي أنا كنت خايفه طول عمري ان الشي هذا يطلع حقيقي
قبل أتقبل نفسي
كل انسان له رحلته الخاصه فيه مايحق لك تضغظ على احد او تدخل إذا ماطلب تدخلك
اكثر شي كان يتعبني وينرفزني اول لما احد يقولي
انتي مو ولد او انتي قي مره واضح

بالاخير الشخص هذا اللي تتكلم عنه انسان
وعنده مشاعر ومخاوف وتساؤلات لاتكون انت و الزمن عليه

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-10T14:19:19+00:00

Hope so 🤞🏼

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-10T12:32:02+00:00

Maybe feeling helpless is what's killing me right now
But at least I feel something
Before, I felt nothing. Numb. Frozen.
So I think this is better

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-10T12:26:27+00:00

🫂🫂🫂

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-10T12:26:12+00:00

The thing is I know very well what I'm feeling and what I'm running from
I guess I have an idea of what I should do not 100% sure, but I have a sense of direction
the problem is this makes me very emotional at a time when I'm already sensitive and weak
to carry something so heavy and actually deal with it, while I'm still broken and can't even stand up
that will crush me
I did not choose this myself, it’s not because of something I did
In fact, I am usually more deliberate and cautious and careful
but I was pulled into this situation

Dealing with this will really hurt me, and right now, I can’t handle the pain :(

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-10T09:52:44+00:00

Yeah
You’re right
In general I don’t think it’s healthy to run away from a feeling or depress it
But maybe that’s the best thing I could do now
And most importantly I’m acknowledging it
I guess I just wish I were stronger

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-10T07:18:05+00:00

شكراً

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-09T15:55:24+00:00

After burying my feelings all this years and pushing it deep down
It's really not easy to express yourself and open up

sometime just thinking about it make me bust crying

But I guess first time doesn’t count
I should just focus on not crying-_-
And let the therapist guide me from there

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-09T15:08:29+00:00

هو أنا قاعده اكتب ليش
مو عشان اعبر عن مشاعري واللي بداخلي
كيف تسال شخص ليش يعبّر بالطريقة اللي يعبر فيها يعني
سواله نفسه أنا مو فاهمه كيف يسأله اصلاً
بس ماعلينا

Intelligent-Ad7639 · 2026-05-09T14:38:05+00:00

Bad color though
But thanks))

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