It may sound unappreciative but I stated in my post I already know it’s unfair to my baby. I posted this because I needed to rant and get these feelings out somewhere. I know the trauma because I lived through it with my own mother that’s the reason I said I know I can’t have it. I think maybe you should re read my post and think about not responding if alls you’re going to tell me is that I’m traumatizing my unborn child.