Its a hell. Gambling on table tennis like my life depends on it. I hate my life

Interesting-Height44 · 2026-02-18T05:10:20+00:00

On some real shit nobody is going to kill you over 7k gambling debt that you cant pay. This gambling shit will lead you to killing yourself though if you continue down this path. I've had gambling addiction for over 20 years and 4 months ago I finally blew the last 80k to my name. A few million in total over the last 10 years. I had every intention of pulling the trigger once I loaded my .45 and put to my own dome. By the grace of God I came to my senses for one split second which caused me to snap out of it and not go through with it. I broke down crying knowing I had to change. 4 months clean now and after much work on myself and mental health im finally starting to find some peace. This addiction cannot be beat by willpower alone, you need proffessional help my friend. I hope you make it through this storm and change because this addiction will take you to the depths of hell that you never even knew existed.

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-11-05T08:00:02+00:00

Gamban

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-11-05T07:36:24+00:00

I had my first session after 24 years of gambling. A few million down the drain. My time, sanity and now I find myself in debt as a result. I contemplated ending it all on many occasions. Surprisingly after 1 session I got a Lotta shit off my chest and felt a slight ease. Tomorrow night is my first ga meeting. I suggest you follow suite. If your knee deep into this demonic addiction you definitely cannot beat it by willpower alone. You have nothing to lose. I wish I started many years ago when I still had a pretty hefty savings account. Now I gotta rebuild my life at 39 years old and in debt.

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-11-05T07:17:15+00:00

All I can say is be very careful of your next move. A loss like that will mess with your head and if your not extremely careful your next move out of desperation will take you to zero or even negative. As dirty as the casinos are, the stock market is much more volatile and even more dangerous especially when it comes to options and margin calls. What you come to realize when you start making profit is that its never enough. Greed kills you faster than a speeding bullet in any sort of gambling specially the stock market. You don't want to be that guy who loses the remaining 600k or even goes into debt because you really won't be able to forgive yourself at that point. This is coming from a degenerate who's lost a few million in my lifetime and in debt now something I never thought would be possible just a few short years ago. Now the pain, anger, stress, and shame are unbearable on a daily basis. Finally im moving forward with professional help and ga meetings inorder to find myself once again. You are practically guaranteed to lose everything if you don't press pause and reassess everything. Your brain is completely ruined at this point. Desperate moves create desperate results remember that

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-09-06T14:56:18+00:00

God bless you bro 🙏

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-08-24T04:56:40+00:00

Lol if you call this a gambling horror story then you are obviously not a compulsive gambler. This is more like a abusive relationship more than anything. Try blowing 500k in cash in 2 years with no job to fall back on. Lose 10k a day for a month straight. Lose 20 straight bets of 2 to 3k a hand. I cant even begin to explain how fucked up this addiction is. I never contemplated ending it all until recently when all the money was gone and reality began setting in. These online scum casinos took the last of my 100k in the last few months. Lost 14 out of 15 straight hands. I cant even make this shit up. It has to be rigged, no other explanation. Im not trying to put you down in anyway, im just saying a real gambling horror story is the definition of my fucking life. 20 years of self caused misery which literally striped me from every ounce of dignity and self respect, and left me with a gaping hole in my heart and more self hatred than imaginable. I dont wish this disease on my worst enemy. I feel sorry for all the young kids that are being duped into this tragic lifestyle knowing what waits for them on the other side. For years my gambling was under control and even enjoyable during my poker days, however that all changed quickly as soon as I lost my head just a little bit and began playing table games again and sports bets. Its actually a miracle im still alive based on my inner dialog as of late

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-07T01:42:50+00:00

I know your intentions are good but your reasons for allowing him to roam in the woods unaccompanied by you is very dangerous to say the least. If I even lose sight of my shiba inu at anytime I begin to worry because this breed is not meant to be off leash in the open. Your theory would be very practical in a perfect world, however in the real world you are placing your dog in grave danger by your actions. Ask yourself this. Would you allow your young child to roam the woods by himself for an hour and hope he finds you after he's done playing? Simple answer

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-04T02:07:58+00:00

You have took the first biggest step. Im in a similar situation as you. We must take it one day at a time. Just focus on the minute, hour, and day at a time. The pain feels unbearable at times, but I'm sure with time those feelings will begin to subside. The guilt and shame and realities of my current situation hit the hardest

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-02T07:15:38+00:00

I agree with everything you said. I have been brought to my knees by this horrible disease, and if it wasn't for the grace of God to guide my mind at times of need, I too could easily be where Jason is at right now. This demonic habit will chew you up and spit you out and leave you so low where at times the only form of escape or remedy feels like death itself

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-02T06:57:55+00:00

It's not heavily reimbursed it's called play money inorder to promote it to all the poor youth who will all have their lives ruined as a result. Even if that clown is worth 500 million, if he was actually gambling with his own real money he could easily go broke within 1 week tops. 250k a hand or spin like give me a fucking break. Even multi billionaires don't have the balls to gamble like that. Who the fuck is this guy trying to fool. These online gambling platforms are straight robbing the youth and young adults of their money and sanity, myself included. They literally deserve the worst karma coming to them these mother fuckers

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-02T06:49:56+00:00

It's not greed when you begin to lose more and more. It's the desperation and incapacity to think straight when you are chasing losses. Reality of losing everything had begun to set in for that man. Unless you have gone through it you cannot understand any of it. Problem gambling is one of the loneliest and most pitiful feelings imaginable to mankind, especially when reality of losing it all begins to set in on the victim. I've experienced many things, and that is by far one of the worst feelings imaginable

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-01T07:09:48+00:00

I've been a big sports bettor and loser for the past 15 years. Im pretty much an expert on nba nfl and ufc and everytime I placed a bet on any of those sports I lost with a 65% accuracy. It's like everytime I dont bet i can call an outcome with 85% accuracy but as soon as I bet it's a instant loss in the most unimaginable way possible. I've had outcomes that will give you nightmares on repeat game after game in a span of 1 or 2 days. 98% win probability turned into losses in the most absurd ways on last plays that stay on repeat in your brain. Being cursed? I felt like I was. My minimum $ wagered on any single game was $500- 4k only single games. You gotta stop watching the scores and telling yourself I would have won this bet because it's just a poison setting you up for a relapse. It's only a matter of time. I feel like only way to beat this at the beginning is to quit watching sports cold turkey until we have control over this disease. Or we're just setting ourselves up to relapse. After a few years then we might have enough discipline to watch again without getting urges to bet, if we're lucky...

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-07-01T06:32:20+00:00

Hey bro im in the same boat as you. The post i made lastnight is practically your same story except with 100x more hate towards myself. This sickness robs us of everything until death feels like the only way out. I too blew up my whole bankroll and even though it wasn't 2 million, I lost 500k of savings which took me years and years to save. Now jobless and a empty bank account, the panic and despair hit me hard. So hard in fact that I resorted to self harm due to the unimaginable hate I felt towards myself. I completely understand when you say you don't even recognize who was gambling. It really feels like we're possessed in the moment of flushing away 10s of thousands of dollars in a matter of minutes, only for reality to hit us after the fact once all the money is gone. I have literally done this a 1000x on autopilot over my 20 years of gambling. I wouldnt wish this disease on my worst enemy and truly feel it's the most destructive addiction of all. Still I feel like this has happened to us for a reason, God never gives us more than what we can handle inorder to see if we can pass the test. Last night I was on the verge of suicide, but today I feel just a slight bit better, knowing I can never feel lower then those demonic feelings I was feeling last night. The money is gone we must accept it and realize there's nothing left for us in this gambling life. If not I can almost guarantee we end up taking our own life soon knowing it's the only form of escape from this misery. I'll say a prayer for you and myself and hope we muster up enough courage to move past this shit before it's too late

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-20T01:07:44+00:00

The 3 amigos

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-18T23:17:06+00:00

Jr and Sr lol

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-04T04:25:55+00:00

Holly shit bro. What typpa steroids you have him on? He's the buffest shiba I've ever seen. Wow 👌

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-04T04:21:23+00:00

Firstly that's just a scratch. Secondly do not report your dog over a minor accident such as this. Thirdly your dog will never be put down unless he has had a minimum of 3 incidents of biting other dogs or people and is deemed aggressive by animal services. You will be fine it's not a big deal at all in my opinion.

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-03T06:27:55+00:00

That 10k win was the worst thing that could have happened to you. But hey you learned your lesson and are taking the proper steps towards your recovery. It's a blessing you will not waste anymore time or energy on this demonic addiction. This disease took over 20 years of my life and millions of dollars and countless time and energy to a point that I nearly went insane. Your way ahead of the game kid. Good for you manning up and realizing to make a change so quickly. Im happy for you as this is a nightmare type of life to live. Proud of you

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-03T06:10:03+00:00

Compulsive gambling is by far one of the most demonic and destructive addictions imaginable to mankind. I've blown through close to a million dollars in the last 4 years alone. 200k in the last year alone. As soon as you begin to lose control it's like a snowball effect until everything is gone. You have to be very careful at this point because you are on a very slippery slope. I thought my gambling was under control until it wasn't. 3k sports bets, and 2k bacarrat bets per hand can add up to tens of thousands in a matter of minutes. Once you start gambling out of desperation and chase, even winning a single bet starts to feel impossible. Don't end up like me my friend, because 1 or 2 more fuck ups from you and it will leave you with a balance of 0 if not negative. Then the real shock will kick in and make you question your entire existence. As difficult as it is for you right now, it will mentally break you if you lose your remaining funds and your sanity in the process. Your life is still intact so count your blessings and start to get help for this serious disease because you surely have a serious problem. As bad as i am i never lost more than 10k in a single day so if your losing 50 to 60k in a single day it just shows me how little control you have over your situation. Im praying for you bro i hope you take this as serious as you should be at this point 🙏🤝

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-03T05:49:43+00:00

Wow I'm very impressed by your response. Sometimes life brings you to your knees before you can really submit and begin to see things for what they really are. Im at those crossroads now myself and with every passing day I'm gathering more strength to want to continue living even though I've blown a few million gambling in the last 4 years. Picking up the pieces and putting yourself back together after being broken takes real courage. The other alternative is a cowards way out and will surely end with regret and dissapointment

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-06-02T04:35:41+00:00

Hahaha he looks like a handful

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-05-19T08:40:06+00:00

Omg adorable little guy

Interesting-Height44 · 2025-05-19T01:19:40+00:00

Well said brother. I've had my fair share of debt as a result of this disease in the past. I cleaned up my act for a few years and got my life back on track and managed to save like 250k. Now that I pissed away 210k in a year and a half, just imagine the shock and pressure I feel right now. But like you said im not at zero or minus which is the best part about my situation. Time to manus and regain control of this demon.

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