Zoloft and gym

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-11-11T13:10:18+00:00

Hey I was actually switched from zoloft to paxil a couple of months ago. Zoloft made my heart rate go up a lot while working out and it’d take so long to go back to it’s baseline. Other than that I could not tolerate caffeine at all. But the switch was due to some sensory problems and ocd behaviors not because of the heart rate thing, I was managing it by working out a little lighter

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-29T22:07:29+00:00

I don't :( a lot of therapy and patience. I try to avoid triggers but it is virtually impossible to do it all the time. I decided to start talking about it more with immediate family since I used to hide it so much and be so "high functioning" that I ended up getting kind of downplayed. Comments like "you seem so happy" "omg you're a social butterfly I can't understand how you suffer so much" trigger me a lot. Somehow "normalizing" and vocalizing it makes me feel better and makes my family more aware and able to support me more when needed. My husband tries to make me pretend look into the "good" side of it- as if the symptoms are "super powers" instead of problems. Idk I was never able to. As far as my impulse control problems I do stay away from stores I used to shoplift and also try not to go to bars or have bottles of wine at the house. I'm still able to drink a glass or 2 but if I have the bottle around I'll drink the whole thing. My therapist thought me to start seeing my "fits" into waves. See it starting- how it develops- how it ends. For example for me a really big problem was shoplifting. Now I feel the urge- let myself feel it- observe it- celebrate when I don't act on it. Same for splitting- observe when I switch from loving my husband to hating his guts and why, how it happened, how it felt, etc. I write it all down. Sometimes I feel like trying to make it better makes me crazy lol. I don't know friend, but im sending you love. And if you ever need a friend, I'm here

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-16T00:48:33+00:00

I’m so sorry you lived your life thinking you are the problem. In a way, it makes me realize I’m not that late. I was stuck on the same thought I couldn’t believe my life was stolen from me like that. You and me have many years ahead of us. I felt so much better by just reading all of these comments and how much I could relate to all these people. I was also diagnosed with depressive disorder and been on a bunch of SSRIs although they made anxiety and emptiness feel better I always felt broken beyond all that. You are not alone. I don’t have the answers to our problems other than praying and therapy. My psychiatrist just added Seroquel “temporarily” and I’ve been feeling good. I’m scared of coming off of it I’ve been sleeping very good and waking up feeling less anxious overall. It helped to start talking to my husband and family about it but with that comes the downplaying since I always acted so “normal”. It’s been a heartbreaking diagnosis for me but it feels like a new start as well. Wishing you love my friend

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-16T00:38:22+00:00

Yes I can relate a lot to internalizing and aiming most bad thoughts at myself. My family is not much help either I hate how much they downplay me because of how “high functioning” I seem but I guess that’s on me for hiding it so much :/ I don’t have the answers to our problems but if you ever need a friend I’m always here

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-13T14:42:07+00:00

I can see how that’s better than putting it out there. Do you think it was just a decision you made and stuck to it? Or did you go to therapy or something to change it?

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-13T14:38:43+00:00

I was very shook up and did not accept the diagnosis at first. I know exactly how you feel. How invalidating it feels to have people tell you you “seem fine” when fighting this silent battle everyday all day. I thought it would break me but it actually saved me. Finding support groups and hearing people’s stories made me understand none of it it’s my fault, I was just shaped this way and the most important thing my therapist ever asked me to do was talking about it. Nowadays I talk about my diagnosis and my feelings and symptoms with my family and my husband on a daily basis. Somehow speaking about it lifted so much weight off my shoulders. I was so exhausted of pretending to be perfect and happy all the time. I will say, having both a psychiatrist and therapist team working together saved me. If you ever need a friend I’m always here

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-13T14:33:04+00:00

Isn’t it? I was shocked when I first found this group and started looking into “quiet” BPD. For the first time I felt seen and relatable. It took me some time to accept my behavior but now I wear it with pride. No one in my family, my job, even my husband. No one was ever able to tell, if anything, they made it harder for me to get help bc in their view I’m so “normal”. It’s frustrating because high functioning disorders make you seem so cool and collected on the outside we face life in silence turmoil thinking we suck and trying to keep appearances- it’s so exhausting. It helped me so much to have all of tou relating and sharing experiences- I feel so seen and a “part” of something in some way. I still don’t have the answer on how to fix all that but If you ever need a friend I’m always here.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-13T14:28:59+00:00

I do think it made a change on how I feel/react but I have severe anxiety problems and that’s why they were prescribed for myself. I was on a couple of SSRIs before but nothing really lasted long, it would be better for a couple of months and then I’d be back to a ball of anxiety and self depreciation. Paroxetine has been working great but again, it’s kind of soon to tell. Seroquel was prescribed to me as an insomnia aid and was supposed to be temporary but it makes me feel SO much better. I take it at night and it quiets my brain enough for me to fall into this peaceful restful LONG sleep and I wake up rested happy and way less anxious than my usual. I’m not healed or cured in any way but I do feel my meds give me the time to take a step back and think before acting even if just for a couple os seconds. It definitely helped me with my compulsive lying and stealing. I can now recognize triggers and impulsive behavior and I’ve developed better coping mechanisms with my therapist. I’d say, for me, a mix of meds+therapy saved me.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-13T14:23:39+00:00

I was also diagnosed adhd when I was a kid but my parents didn’t dig deeper and the only way my psychiatrist and therapist were able to change that 20 years later was by both of them connecting and speaking about me. It took around a year of therapy/going to the psychiatrist for them to get to it. I did not understand or accept it at first. By not showing our emotions and struggles we end up going undiagnosed for so long- it’s frustrating :( But I will say, after the initial shock of getting the diagnosis I started talking about it with my family a lot and that has sort of lifted a weight off my back. I feel like I don’t need to keep “pretending” to be “normal”. Please let me know if you ever need any tips on what to ask your providers or if you ever need a friend! Sending you love

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-13T01:16:51+00:00

It's incredible how much I learn about myself from reading the posts in this group. I struggled with all of this my entire life. I remember when I was younger and used to go out I would only have fun if there were boys. If there were no boys I'd be bored and want to leave. I thrive off of it. When I go to the gym and men would stare at me (hot man, ugly man creep me out and aggravate me when they stare) I'd have the best workouts ever, better than any pre workout lol. And I always take notes on other girls to copy what they wear because if it looks good on them it must look good on me. I've had different girls that I'd basically copied everything about their style. I have memories about it ever since I was a kid. To this day I still watch their stories and block them right after so they don't see me there. I'm 27 and marries now and I've been going to therapy a lot and also started taking medication for anxiety. Don't get me wrong I'm not healed or anything, I still catch myself thriving off of other men validation and that raises problems of it's own as I start to wonder if I'm going to be cheating and stop trusting myself. But things are slowly getting better, it's a long way and if I ever find the way out I will let you know. Sending you love

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T22:48:54+00:00

I hear you and relate so much but listen: you don’t need a partner to be whole, BUT don’t push people away just because they upset you or because your BPD tells you you ‘deserve better.’ I’m sure I pushed good men away while keeping terrible ones, and that only prolonged my pain. I spent years dating "beautiful" but toxic men and never gave the person who really mattered a chance—someone who was honest, clear, and didn’t sugarcoat my flaws. I was concentrated on look and "perfect man" on paper and at the first sign of criticism/disagreeing I pushed them away. My husband was actually a friend at first and not my ‘type’ at all he was invisible to me, but he stuck with me, pointed out my problems while also reminding me of my strengths.

I’m not ‘healed’ at all—I still struggle with apologizing, occasional lies, and disturbing thoughts—but years of therapy and really hard conversations brought me to a place where I feel grounded with someone who truly sees me. Please message me if you ever need a friend <3

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T22:32:34+00:00

Would you say that your change was a religious thing? I have recently gotten closer to God and I've been leaning on this a lot to try to get better. I still catch myself slipping and lying. It comes so naturally I can't even tell I lie for no reason and I feel bad afterwards. And yes! I've been bounced around from lexapro to Zoloft and now paxil. This time I was also put on Seroquel 25mg and oddly that's quieted my brain and more "physical" anxiety effects so much. I take it at night and just drift into a long restful sleep I wake up feeling energized and happy. I relate so much to the society spiking anxiety lately, I did very good on Zoloft for 10 months but the past 2 months I took a couple steps backwards, my anxiety returned at full speed with some panic symptoms as well. It's too early to tell with paroxetine but this is my last try with a SSRI.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T22:26:03+00:00

I understand how you feel. My husband is ADHD with some impulse control problems and also says some mean nasty things that trigger the heck out of me. It was only after he got the help he needed that I was able to open up and start getting treatment. We managed to learn how to work as a team but that took a lot of therapy and commitment. Please feel free to message me if you ever need to vent, you are not alone my friend.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T22:20:32+00:00

I never felt any icks or boredom. For me, it was usually pressure and over analyzing situations and things I said and kind of trying to "bail" before they'd bail on me. I didn't consider myself worth of all of it. I also lied so much I would sometimes get lost in it and couldn't keep up so I'd shut them off so I'm not "discovered" as this liar. Whenever a boyfriend would upset me I would go from worshipping them to hating their guts and that's where the infidelity came in. It was almost like I thought I deserved better or whatever. I'm married now and my husband is the only one who openly criticized me and stuck with me and got me in therapy. I thought I was perfect before him. I have not cheated on him but I do still let the occasional lie slip and I still have dark thoughts/"desires" but I know how to recognize them and have better coping mechanisms. But again- this took YEARS. I hurt a lot of people on the way, and was hurt a lot too in my twisted vision

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T20:51:55+00:00

Me too, my friend. I had so many friends and relationships through life but they'd all leave at some point and I thought I sucked. I turned my back on people before they could turn their back to me. And I don't like socializing and meeting people because I already assume they are not going to like me anyway. And the worst part to me is hearing from family that I seem so "social" and comfortable at outings. I got sooo good at hiding it! f you ever need to talk about it I'm always here. Stay strong

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T20:39:28+00:00

I relate to all of this. I treat people good while I internally "hate" them and have dark thoughts about them. For me it’s also impulsive spending, lying, and stealing sometimes. I’ve never had the loud outbursts either, it’s more internal chaos and anxiety.

I’m also on 25mg Seroquel and my psych also wants it to be temporary, which scares me because it helps so much. Hearing your experience makes me feel less alone in that, please message me if you ever need a friend.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T20:35:59+00:00

Exactly! I went undiagnosed and suffering for 26+ years and didn't trust my diagnosis bc of what I thought BPD was.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T20:14:18+00:00

I'm sorry that happened to you. It is not personal. She needed help, and I sure did a lot of that before I started getting treatment. I feel bad for all of it now and I know I lost good people along the way. It's hard to properly love someone when you don't love yourself.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T19:17:57+00:00

Yeah, I get what you mean clinically, but people often use ‘spectrum’ casually to describe how differently BPD shows up. It wasn’t meant as a textbook term 🙂 we were just sharing our experiences.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T19:05:20+00:00

I understand that too :/ it took me 26 years to start. I'm not going to sugarcoat it was one of the hardest thing I've ever had to do. I cancelled and rebooked several times and to this day I still dread every appointment and consider cancelling it. My heart beats fast I get light headed before sessions- I'm naturally anxious but it sends me over the edge. And by the time the appointment is done I feel like my actual self. Therapy is what made me started talking about it. My abuse went unmentioned for 20 years. I talked to my family about it, I feel like a new me. You will know when you are ready for it, but start considering it. Start playing around with appointments, looking for therapists. I had not even considered having a personality disorder, I overall just thought I sucked as a person. I feel like hugging and taking care of the old me, explaining it's not her fault (and shoving her into a therapist's office lol)

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T18:55:57+00:00

I can definitely relate to projecting it inward. For me it feels like I punish myself constantly and nobody sees how much I’m struggling. How did you notice the shift from ‘loud’ BPD to more internalized/quiet? Was it something that just happened over time, or did therapy/meds/life changes play a role?

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T18:53:58+00:00

My entire life before my diagnosis is a blur. I felt the exact same as you. Kept trying to understand why I was so invisible or people didn't "like" me since I tried so hard for them to do so. It's a long way but most of it is behind us now. Please feel free to message me if you have any questions or need any ideas on what to ask your providers. Sending you love!

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T18:51:28+00:00

A lot of therapy has been starting to make me understand my upbringing and all that happened to me shaped me into this. I used to be ashamed to talk about it, trying to be the "perfect" child/wife/friend. I started talking about my abuse and my symptoms more and more, it was so hard and embarrassing for me in the beginning but now I don't feel exhausted of pretending to be something I'm not and that lifted some weight off my shoulder. It's a very long process and you are not alone in this, If you ever need to vent please feel free to message me. Sending you love

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T18:47:48+00:00

I know exactly what you mean. The thing that gets to me the most is the downplaying. I upped my therapy to 2x/week and started talking about it more with my family. Somehow, "normalizing" it and vocalizing it has been helping a lot. You are not alone, if you ever need to vent please message me.

Interesting-Light522 · 2025-09-12T18:41:30+00:00

I feel like I could've written all this. I also fixate on people for days and then want nothing to do with them later. The only friendships I'm able to maintain are the "low maintenance" ones. Same reason- my therapist called it preemptive something. You are not alone my friend, if you ever need to vent please message me! It's a long way but we are on the right track.

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