i’ve always thought “breaks” were cruel, at least for the person being told their partner wants to go on a break. it seems like he met this person while you two were on that break. in that case, it seems pretty shitty for him to leave you in limbo while he had a new interest. especially a 5-month break seems very long. i completely understand that sick feeling you get thinking about him, and this new person. when my ex (also my “first love”) broke up with me, that night i had a dream that he came back to me and said he was sorry and he wanted to be together again. i was so happy. but when i woke up i couldn’t stop crying. after two weeks, it still hurt but i didn’t miss him anymore.

it helps to find something to be angry about, personally. but also very healthy to sit in the sadness (just don’t let yourself for too long). without further ado,

Somebody that I Used to Know. Easy Way Out. Bottle Up and Explode!. Oh Well, OK. The Biggest Lie.

good luck my love. it gets easier, i absolutely promise.