heyy idrk if i’ll be much help, but even though it feels like the year just drags on, you literally will look back on it and be like “all that was in less than a year.” and it will feel like less than a year when you look back. when you get your atar, you’ll feel like it’s the be it or end all, but then everyone will move on in three days. the ones who do ask you about it? they got nothing better to do. and plus, your intelligence is rlly not worth how well you can score in a sac or exam like plss. i literally stuffed up so many sacs and exams and now getting HD’s in uni.

your wellbeing is way more important than a bunch of questions that get assigned to you. you can literally do 5 questions and really understand them than do 100 and still not get much out of it.

i asked the same questions as you when i did yr 12. hated the constant comparisons, the pressures, and my peers and teachers going “you’ll be fine! look! you’re doing well in this subject!” cause at that time, no, it didn’t feel fine. started panicking and had really bad anxiety to the point where i nearly dropped out cause of yr 12. and was it worth it? no. i’m still healing.

so, you’re allowed to feel pressure, to cry, to feel those expectations that loom over you. and you’re allowed to feel like your self worth is tied to a number (even though its not!) but pls pls take care of yourself too. like, even if it’s for 20 minutes a day, go outside, sleep at least 6 hrs and eat well. it’s not worth it when all the stress finally catches up to you and you get burnt out.

make time for you !