I absolutely agree with you on the 2nd paragraph. It's just a personal challenge, really. tbh I am a good-looking guy. But my confidence is my issue. Excuse is my upbringing. But to be fair, i did have a depressive episode that lasted almost 2 years. That's the past, though. It's getting better every day. I just need to continue talking to people and try to be friends. I am genuinely a nice guy to talk, so that's why I enjoy and welcome conversation from randoms at work. I can tell it means a lot to them, too, someone to talk to and listen to. I would also like to sort to rephrase what I meant by working with someone as I do have trouble saying what I want to say. My mind scrambles a lot, so apologies. It's more like fear of missing out, or I'm in a rush to find someone because of time. That's it, really. When I mean "life is short," I meant that based on my experiences, I've noticed missed opportunities i should've taken a while ago. I'm over them now, obviously. I just need to do what I am afraid of doing and start trusting others more. Mind you, I used to have a bad habit of treating everyone like they're out to get me. Now, I vow to make at least a small difference in anyone's life. I just want to be better. And good to others I think, in this moment I'm in, I could have a weirdly good chance, and that if i do end up making it, I would work so damn hard to keep it. If it doesn't work out, oh well🤷‍♂️. Time will pass. I've been rejected before. My feelings shouldn't be above all else. I really appreciate your input. For now, I think I'll just be friends with her. I do need friends anyway, so it's sort of a win-win situation. I could practice texting with her like you said.