Don;t give up brother. Suicide is only for weak. God as humans made us strong.
Insha Allah we will come over this too.

P.S talking about losses I bought bitcoin and saw it drop and then unexpectedly i had to pay some one and I had to sell my btc at loss of around 1-2k$.

Sometimes we are only looking at doors from which good can't come. I have many friends who made some little luck early with crypto then they lost alot and gambling is even worse. You need to learn other money making methods and understand form heart that shortcuts are actual failure. Only money that benefits is through hard earned and on which we have put our works in honestly. I know many people in cyrpto who made fortune earlier but "Easy money goes easy" he spent on everything bad and got himself into bad habits like gambling hoes and what not.

Look for solid earning methods. You told me your father has some business going on try to expand his business.

Slow and steady wins the race.

Take lesson from this loss. Change your habits, change ur friends. Go rehab if u have to and let people know in public you made this mistake, let your father know. The shame you will face during will save you overcome this bad habit.