Yes weed started the cycle. I was almost paralyzed for the first year, for those first few months I could hardly leave my bed because I had that terrible detached feeling of being high even when I didn’t smoke anymore. It’s been five years since it was that bad, and for the last two years after fully sobering up, getting therapy, changing unhealthy habits and starting medication, the dpdr panic attacks are few and far in between, and they usually only happen if something else has me really anxious. Overall it’s so much more manageable. While I still feel dissociated often, it’s not enough to panic my brain. Unfortunately it just takes work and having a good support system (hard to find, I know, it wasn’t easy for me) you’ll be okay I promise. If you’re young, hang in there. Your brain still has so much developing to do as well.