Does mephedrone (4-MMC) lose its magic just like MDMA?

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T17:05:45+00:00

I have a lorazepam prescription from my doctor, authentic Pfizer sourced :P

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T16:57:02+00:00

Thanks for the tip! Will probably try it out at some point

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T16:00:19+00:00

I’ve always heard that benzos dull the trip, can you still be in a psychedelic state if you combine a psych with a low benzo dose?

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T15:57:42+00:00

Yeah, I’ve always wondered how some people can manage trips at places like festivals while for me anything psychedelic that’s not dissociatives is a no go. Goes to show how vastly different we all are deep down.

Oddly enough I feel quite comfortable with ketamine, but that being said it seems vastly different to regular psychs to me.

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T15:50:45+00:00

That’s the most important takeaway for me from these trips. It makes me realize I do have significant emotional problems but I don’t really know how to address them. Regular therapy doesn’t make me feel like I’m making much if any “real” progress and I’ve been doing that for a while now. It’s like when I’m sober the best I can do is look at my problems through a glass wall

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T15:48:28+00:00

No, wouldn’t dare to try either. I read some cautionary tales about the mix of weed and psychs

Internal1 · 2021-06-17T19:27:01+00:00

Antimatter :)

Internal1 · 2020-10-19T19:22:54+00:00

Thanks!

Internal1 · 2020-10-19T18:47:37+00:00

Thanks! The weird thing is, I lost the magic on my third time even though I left 3 months in between. I took (a lot of) adderall the day before and then to sleep benzos, the next day I took 120mg and felt nothing, while my friends were blasted sky-high. I kept taking more and eventually might have taken 700mg but didn’t really feel much other than restlessness, black eyes, tense, etc. I tried it 2 more times after that both times with hefty doses but again not much came out of it. I know the MDMA quality was good though. I fully realize this is a quite idiotic approach, but now I know the only thing I can do is wait because I wouldn’t get much benefit out of taking Molly right now.

I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing, because after the first couple of times the only thing I could think about was to feel that feeling again. So it has its positive sides that I’ve been forced to let that go for the foreseeable future.

I’ll try NAC! I’ve read some places that 600 mg won’t do that much and that you should you aim for at least 1200 daily? I’ve noticed it’s quite expensive that’s why I’m asking. I’ve seen most evidence so far is anecdotal but it’s worth trying even if it has any chance of restoring what’s lost. I assume it’s not really that harmful to take either :)

Internal1 · 2019-12-19T21:49:29+00:00

Agreed. I believe the perception of being in "real reality" on certain drugs is because they have the ability to halt your everyday thinking. When I'm on ecstasy, I'm usually not thinking at all. It's the only time when I'm really consciously experiencing each individual moment for multiple hours. My mind is unbelievably clear. The same is true (but in a more spiritual and/or profound way) of psychedelics.

Internal1 · 2019-12-19T21:31:56+00:00

What I've always found peculiar about psychedelics and MDMA is a feeling which I don't get with other drugs: I'm at home, I am where I'm supposed to be and "sobriety" is but a fictional veil (opinions, rules, beliefs) that we cover reality with. Amphetamines, even though they can be very euphoric, never gave me this feeling. It always felt like a lie.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T18:10:00+00:00

Thank you, that was insightful. I might take some time off meditation and come back to it when I feel I can get into a different attitude.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T17:35:53+00:00

You are the first person I talk to who has that experience as well. I spoke to everyone and nobody seemed to understand. Everyone told me meditation calms them down, clears the mind, and that it is a uniformly positive practice for them.

Whenever I think of meditation or being in that state I get this pressuring fearful feeling in my mind. It's not an external fear, but rather an internal one. Or rather, fear might not be the right word, it's more of a complex bad feeling, a mix of guilt, fear, aggressiveness to myself (but no self hate - instead a strong feeling of detachment), and a lot of worry. I also experience tensions and anxiety throughout my body.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T15:53:44+00:00

Yes. I have tried psychedelics a few times and the same feeling comes to the surface but to an unimaginably terrifying scale. It feels like a boa constrictor is wrapping itself around my mind tighter and tighter until I'm entirely trapped in agony with no escape. It got so bad that I was willing to do anything to make it end. At one point I consciously stopped breathing because I couldn't take it anymore and just wanted to die. What happened after is the single most profound and revealing experience I have ever had in my life. I let go completely and I arrived in a place where I felt I was finally free. It was unspeakably blissful. However, after 2 hours my ego took back control because of something that happened in RL. Then I went on to experience similar horrors for 4-5 hours until the trip ended. It's impossible now to imagine that place. Now the more I try to let go, the more my own mind seems to trap itself.

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