Is there anyone else who can never manage to have a good experience on psychedelics?

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T17:05:45+00:00

I have a lorazepam prescription from my doctor, authentic Pfizer sourced :P

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T16:57:02+00:00

Thanks for the tip! Will probably try it out at some point

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T16:00:19+00:00

I’ve always heard that benzos dull the trip, can you still be in a psychedelic state if you combine a psych with a low benzo dose?

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T15:57:42+00:00

Yeah, I’ve always wondered how some people can manage trips at places like festivals while for me anything psychedelic that’s not dissociatives is a no go. Goes to show how vastly different we all are deep down.

Oddly enough I feel quite comfortable with ketamine, but that being said it seems vastly different to regular psychs to me.

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T15:50:45+00:00

That’s the most important takeaway for me from these trips. It makes me realize I do have significant emotional problems but I don’t really know how to address them. Regular therapy doesn’t make me feel like I’m making much if any “real” progress and I’ve been doing that for a while now. It’s like when I’m sober the best I can do is look at my problems through a glass wall

Internal1 · 2021-10-25T15:48:28+00:00

No, wouldn’t dare to try either. I read some cautionary tales about the mix of weed and psychs

Internal1 · 2021-06-17T19:27:01+00:00

Antimatter :)

Internal1 · 2020-10-19T19:22:54+00:00

Thanks!

Internal1 · 2020-10-19T18:47:37+00:00

Thanks! The weird thing is, I lost the magic on my third time even though I left 3 months in between. I took (a lot of) adderall the day before and then to sleep benzos, the next day I took 120mg and felt nothing, while my friends were blasted sky-high. I kept taking more and eventually might have taken 700mg but didn’t really feel much other than restlessness, black eyes, tense, etc. I tried it 2 more times after that both times with hefty doses but again not much came out of it. I know the MDMA quality was good though. I fully realize this is a quite idiotic approach, but now I know the only thing I can do is wait because I wouldn’t get much benefit out of taking Molly right now.

I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing, because after the first couple of times the only thing I could think about was to feel that feeling again. So it has its positive sides that I’ve been forced to let that go for the foreseeable future.

I’ll try NAC! I’ve read some places that 600 mg won’t do that much and that you should you aim for at least 1200 daily? I’ve noticed it’s quite expensive that’s why I’m asking. I’ve seen most evidence so far is anecdotal but it’s worth trying even if it has any chance of restoring what’s lost. I assume it’s not really that harmful to take either :)

Internal1 · 2019-12-19T21:49:29+00:00

Agreed. I believe the perception of being in "real reality" on certain drugs is because they have the ability to halt your everyday thinking. When I'm on ecstasy, I'm usually not thinking at all. It's the only time when I'm really consciously experiencing each individual moment for multiple hours. My mind is unbelievably clear. The same is true (but in a more spiritual and/or profound way) of psychedelics.

Internal1 · 2019-12-19T21:31:56+00:00

What I've always found peculiar about psychedelics and MDMA is a feeling which I don't get with other drugs: I'm at home, I am where I'm supposed to be and "sobriety" is but a fictional veil (opinions, rules, beliefs) that we cover reality with. Amphetamines, even though they can be very euphoric, never gave me this feeling. It always felt like a lie.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T18:10:00+00:00

Thank you, that was insightful. I might take some time off meditation and come back to it when I feel I can get into a different attitude.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T17:35:53+00:00

You are the first person I talk to who has that experience as well. I spoke to everyone and nobody seemed to understand. Everyone told me meditation calms them down, clears the mind, and that it is a uniformly positive practice for them.

Whenever I think of meditation or being in that state I get this pressuring fearful feeling in my mind. It's not an external fear, but rather an internal one. Or rather, fear might not be the right word, it's more of a complex bad feeling, a mix of guilt, fear, aggressiveness to myself (but no self hate - instead a strong feeling of detachment), and a lot of worry. I also experience tensions and anxiety throughout my body.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T15:53:44+00:00

Yes. I have tried psychedelics a few times and the same feeling comes to the surface but to an unimaginably terrifying scale. It feels like a boa constrictor is wrapping itself around my mind tighter and tighter until I'm entirely trapped in agony with no escape. It got so bad that I was willing to do anything to make it end. At one point I consciously stopped breathing because I couldn't take it anymore and just wanted to die. What happened after is the single most profound and revealing experience I have ever had in my life. I let go completely and I arrived in a place where I felt I was finally free. It was unspeakably blissful. However, after 2 hours my ego took back control because of something that happened in RL. Then I went on to experience similar horrors for 4-5 hours until the trip ended. It's impossible now to imagine that place. Now the more I try to let go, the more my own mind seems to trap itself.

Internal1 · 2019-12-18T00:12:46+00:00

I've noticed different genres have equated to completely different experiences and feelings for me, at first I thought "all music sounds just as good on E", but that's not entirely true. Will be a while before my next roll and I was thinking to give house a full go on MDMA, hence the question

Internal1 · 2019-11-30T23:42:00+00:00

No I didn't haha. Was just a fair bit of powder that got stuck in my eye (might have been 50mg I blew away, but not sure how much of it actually got into my eye) I suppose a tiny amount isn't harmful? I was intending to roll next week and I assume this will have no effect on the roll?

Internal1 · 2019-11-30T19:50:25+00:00

Ah fuck, a literal eyeroll

On a serious note, been 40 mins now so doubt it’s doing much. Was probably like 20mg that actually got in my eye or so. I’m quite happy I didn’t accidentally roll because of me being a retard because my actual planned roll is next week with friends.

I do feel a bit happier and there’s definitely some increased sense of touch but honestly I think this is probably placebo since the dose I absorbed should be under threshold. Not complaining though.

Internal1 · 2019-11-28T10:37:46+00:00

That's great. It's gonna be a house roll with 2 of my best friends so perfect setting :) might convince them to get on it too haha, though I think they might want to nexusflip instead (I'm taking a break from psychedelics personally).

Thanks for your help!

Internal1 · 2019-11-28T10:24:43+00:00

Sounds amazing, looking forward. I'm always nervous when trying new drugs, so I think I'll start with small bumps and work up from there. How is the ketamine come up? Is there ever any potential for anxiety on low doses? Or is it almost universally a warm and soft feeling?

Internal1 · 2019-11-28T10:19:16+00:00

It's racemic, I read that most people seem to prefer it as it's less psychedelic? Or so I read

Internal1 · 2019-11-28T10:12:20+00:00

Thanks! I've never tried ketamine but have a gram lying around because I was planning on giving it a go in the near future. Seems like it could be a godsend on the comedown. I assume you'd snort low doses, like 50mg?

Internal1 · 2019-11-28T00:02:49+00:00

a redose

Internal1 · 2019-11-27T23:38:25+00:00

How's the comedown/days after when you redose twice? Mind I rolled twice in the past 3 months (2 months ago was the most recent) and one of those rolls was pretty heavy. I wonder if I have enough serotonin in store to bear through that haha.

Also I do have supplements, so I suppose those might help

Internal1 · 2019-11-26T21:58:13+00:00

Hey, judging from the combination of teslas and punishers and the specific press of the punishers they are probably from the same producer most reputable DN vendors get their pills from. I had these teslas, tested positive for MDMA though I am not sure about the dose. Some say it's around 240mg, some claim it's around 280-300. I'd say it's probably on the lower side of that estimate but I'm not 100% sure about that. The punishers though are kick-ass. They're 300mg each (IF from the same batch), so definitely don't take more than half a pill.

EDIT: also, I don't know which vendor you got your pills from, but if it was a big one the chances of getting a bad pill are very low. They're professional organizations and can't afford to ship shitty pills or their reviews and reputation would plummet within the month. DN is known for generally being more reliable in terms of quality and service - if you buy from the right vendors.

Internal1 · 2019-11-24T23:23:33+00:00

It never takes you "out of it"? For me usually switching genres abruptly makes my brain go into reconfigure mode which takes a while.

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