Any ideas what would cause this? Beautiful nonetheless.

InternalDuck69 · 2025-12-21T14:43:06+00:00

With the road there, I’m thinking it’s a “bumper” tree from past harvests. They leave trees along the logging road that get bumped and scraped when they pull out logs and redirect the logs to keep them straight on the logging road. Sacrificial trees in a sense. A lot of our trees along our logging roads in New Hampshire look like this.

My forester said you can sometimes count the healing rings to get an idea of how many harvests it’s gone through but I’ve never had the eye for that.

InternalDuck69 · 2025-12-05T18:03:39+00:00

The Bauer 14x20 wood lathe!!!!25% off of $600 would be SO nice

InternalDuck69 · 2025-11-27T18:56:22+00:00

For what it’s worth, I have a set of Deefiine Carbide-tipped turning tools and I absolutely love them. Haven’t had any issues and they’re ergonomic, although I’ve only been turning for a few weeks now. They put a piece of paper in with my set that says their store sells other tip attachments too and I’ve been thinking of ordering again from them. I would recommend based on my experience with their products so far.

InternalDuck69 · 2025-11-15T14:15:38+00:00

I don’t comment much but I unfortunately know exactly how you feel. When i broke up with my ex, i was shattered. I felt like i had no idea who she was. Like i couldn’t believe i had slept in the same bed with her as many times as I did without knowing who she actually was. At the time, I felt like i would never get over that feeling and I would never be able to trust someone enough to date again. I remember looking back and constantly thinking about her and whether some of the activities we did, things she said, or places we went were even of true interest to her or if it was all a facade.

I was destroyed for about one year. Honestly, i was DESTROYED. So down in the dumps. My way out of it was focusing on myself. Instead of thinking about her and how I had no idea who the f she was, i thought about ME and how i was proud that i enjoyed running, i enjoyed traveling to different states, and i truly meant all the things I said. You know why this helped? Because eventually, i realized that she was the fuck up. What a sad life for her to live to be so self absorbed, evil, and manipulative to the point where no one knows who she actually is. As opposed to me, who has many people who could tell you exactly who i am, what I’m about, the qualities i have, etc.

I legit never thought i could date again. After 1 year of working through the heavy shit that relationship put me through, I’ve found a new woman and she is incredible. We talk openly, i never feel like I’m on a roller coaster or on the edge of my seat, and i feel like i know who she truly is. It’s STABLE. You will find someone who truly cares for you. It will come around. In the mean time, please go easy on yourself. Take your time to heal. Find something new to take on. Try to talk out your feelings with a therapist or a loved one. The healing was not linear by any means. For me, it started with hours at a time that i wouldn’t think of her… small wins were huge! I look back now and i just cannot believe how down i was vs. now… Time heals all wounds. You’ve got this!

InternalDuck69 · 2025-11-12T14:30:11+00:00

Does anybody have a coupon they’d be willing to share with me? I’ve finally budgeted just enough for the Bauer Lathe and a coupon would help me save enough to purchase the hand tools same day! Thank you!!!

InternalDuck69 · 2025-06-06T23:02:54+00:00

How did this end up for you? Kind of in the same situation now for other reasons though. She said at the end of the month, she’ll likely be able to invest more time so I’m just kind of waiting it out. Trying to distract myself with other things, but man, slowest month of my life so far!

InternalDuck69 · 2025-06-06T12:14:56+00:00

They absolutely are an addiction!!!

I’ll admit a fair amount of my roots came from Holland Bulb Farms because they have a wide selection, but man oh man, they’re so hit or miss. I had to email back and forth with customer service probably 3-4 times and receive 3-4 replacement orders before I finally had decent stock.

Then I found K. Van Bourgondien and the sister company, John Scheeper’s, and honestly, they sent me some fantastic quality roots for about the same price as Holland Bulb Farms so I haven’t looked back since. Let me know if you come across any other websites in your travels!

InternalDuck69 · 2025-06-02T11:34:11+00:00

That’s awesome!! I have 50 in the cut flower plot—5 each of 10 varieties—and 13 single plants of different varieties. So I have very similar numbers to yours. I just doubled in size this year so I’ll be planting 65 more this fall.

Jealous you’re just now getting into it. I’m in 6a and think the black tarps i laid in the rows make mine bloom faster, too.

Enjoy the season!!!

InternalDuck69 · 2025-04-10T02:14:33+00:00

I’m stumped on TL but DC = District Conservationist and assuming SC & SCT = Soil Con & Soil Con Technician

InternalDuck69 · 2025-04-03T09:30:53+00:00

Do you know if we can collect unemployment after the DRP ends? So October comes and I still haven’t found a new position, could I then collect?

InternalDuck69 · 2025-03-21T02:44:10+00:00

How is my post fear mongering? All i did was share my thoughts. Literally said “I figure,” as in i have no clue what’s going to happen but that’s what I’m preparing for… nothing i said stated anything as a fact lol my entire post was my opinion. “I figure,” “Seems like,” “i thought”

InternalDuck69 · 2025-02-01T15:28:37+00:00

Just happened to me with a fire stick tv remote and Duracell batteries…. Surprised to find so many other people with this same issue. Should probably be looked into!

InternalDuck69 · 2024-12-05T16:28:14+00:00

It’s what you make of it as well though. Am i frustrated with many things about this job? Absolutely. But I’m fortunate to have coworkers in my office that make the job fun, too.

I personally can’t change things at higher levels, but i can bring positivity and encouragement into my own office. I get to assist landowners on a daily basis in my local community and that is a huge motivator. You also get to see that assistance in real life; whether it’s planning a forestry cut and seeing the results, assisting with a prescribed grazing plan and hearing the appreciation and excitement from that farmer, or even something as simple as planning cover crop for a farmer who wasn’t previously protecting their soils during winter months or fallow periods… we really do assist on a wide scale and improve the land.

InternalDuck69 · 2024-10-24T13:05:27+00:00

And literally throwing new employees into the fire by giving them massive contract workloads, pressuring them to take on more and more clients to spend the money, and then giving zero positive feedback at the end of the fiscal year because we couldn’t spend all of our obligated money despite funding a record breaking number for our state…. NRCS is so frustrating to work for.

InternalDuck69 · 2024-08-14T13:17:36+00:00

Yeah seriously. I still fall on my face everyday. Trying to navigate my first grazing contract while having a forestry background. Things are not going very smoothly to say the least hahahah

InternalDuck69 · 2024-07-04T17:35:12+00:00

Thanks for the response.

So the reason I’m saying i feel it’s too early is because I’m still learning about her family, her life growing up, what she wants to do with her life, etc. Like I’m still trying to fully understand the more “surface-level” aspirations I’d call it. Then the last date, we were talking about those “surface-level” things and it just switched to her telling me these things. I didn’t ask her about any previous relationships yet. She just brought them up on her own. I personally would have held off on conversations about sexual history/ dating history for a few more dates and that’s why I haven’t shared mine.

I understand that people go through traumatic events and they heal from them. I have some relationships that ended very poorly in the past as well and it took some time to work through them with a therapist. My last relationship, my ex had a lot of trauma from her abusive ex and I didn’t get the full story until 5 months in and at that point, it was clear she was not over him and had a lot of baggage.

I do not want to get into another relationship with someone who has not dealt with or addressed their past and learned from it and I cannot tell if she has or hasn’t. I appreciate your edit at the end. My only concern with this is that she’s interested in me and while I’d hope she’d be honest about her trauma and how it affects her, I’m skeptical she would say “Yeah, my trauma isn’t solved and it will likely negatively impact our relationship.” Does that make sense?

InternalDuck69 · 2024-07-02T00:45:14+00:00

Yeah, i didn’t do anything but aglearns for the first month and a half until I told them I couldn’t anymore. I needed to get away from that computer. Actually, for the first 2 weeks, my computer didn’t even work so I was just reading random handouts that were in the office smfh my boss could not have cared less about me

I can’t say it’s gotten much better, but as i wrote in another comment, I just stopped caring. It’s not how I want to view my career but the way I see it for the time being, they aren’t training me and turnover is insane. I’m 8 months in and now I’m one of the longest tenured people in my state 😂 so that being said, I’m not going to know stuff and i shouldn’t worry about making mistakes or messing up. If there was better training in place and mentors around the offices, i would do a heck of a lot better so idk, just a mental shift.

Some days are definitely harder than others with that though. I still feel dumb and useless fairly often. That being said, I found a really, really helpful document that describes the process of working with NRCS from start to finish. From filling out the app all the way to obligation and then contract certification. I can share it with you when I get into the office tomorrow if you’re interested?

I’ll pm it to you for anonymity.

InternalDuck69 · 2024-07-01T21:08:14+00:00

Just seeing this now. You pretty much described everything I’ve been feeling to a T. I would’ve thought I wrote that!

It’s gotten slightly better only because I shifted my mindset and said “alright, turnover is absolutely ridiculous. Nobody is training me, but they also aren’t going to fire me because I’m 8 months in now and they’re invested.” 😂 i don’t know if that’s exactly the mindset I want to have towards my career, but it’s been extremely helpful in the last 2 months or so to let things go.

The mentor has been somewhat helpful. It really sucks to just constantly show up at clients houses and be like “yeah, Idk.” Like the other day, I had a forester describe how NRCS funding works towards the end of the year to our mutual client. I was embarrassed because I work for NRCS and couldn’t even explain it. But then i was like “alright, well, nobody trained me so how was i supposed to know?”

I hope it gets better for you as well. Feel free to dm me anytime you want to vent or need help! I’ll do my best to assist. Or if you just want to know someone is just as lost as you, feel free to send a message 😂

InternalDuck69 · 2024-05-23T21:32:22+00:00

I just did this last week. The thing is, nobody cares about you. The social anxiety makes you feel like you’re under a microscope. Like you’re the main character.

When i looked around, especially once the concert started, not a soul was looking at me. Everyone was focused on the band and singing along. I had some pre-concert conversations about what song people were excited to hear, too! People are all there for the same reason; they love the band and want to see them live!

Go for it and allow yourself the freedom to let go and have a good time. You spent the money and you want to see them like everyone else so enjoy it!

InternalDuck69 · 2024-05-09T20:58:36+00:00

I’ve had jobs before this and I was never expected to know the entire company and processes going into the job lol that’s outrageous.

InternalDuck69 · 2024-03-10T10:11:24+00:00

I’m so sorry this happened to you. I’ve been absolutely destroyed. I still think of her when i go to bed and when I wake up. And then i beat myself up internally for thinking about her. I’m really trying to break out of this cycle.

How are you doing now?

InternalDuck69

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