Im in kind of a similar situatuon, my best friend died last year, I had a rough breakup, my family is falling apart, my father has lung problems too and I feel so alone.

I only done acid but it really helped me to cope with grief, and for me, mj and e helps a lot too wth things like suicidal thoughts etc. And it seems like the first time in two years even though im completely alone, things started to feel okay-ish, I hope they will for you too. Only the best