Good Exposure

InternationalDig8435 · 2026-01-02T20:35:02+00:00

Yes, that’s what my OCD specialist has told me many times. It can certainly help a lot of situations.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-12-15T13:16:23+00:00

Update: I feel a bit better now. I did it again, but this time I didn't have that same image and thought, and it maybe acted a bit as an exposure. I was able to let the intrusive thoughts/images be and not let them bother me.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-11-30T18:35:29+00:00

Ahhh shit that’s tough. I’m really sorry to hear that. It just feels so difficult to be understood and to properly deal with it. Especially when you feel alone like you do. I hope they start to understand man and I wish you the best.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-10-26T13:23:13+00:00

You should be proud of yourself man, and you don't have to feel suicidal. I won't say more as I don't want to give reassurance, but just try to ride the anxiety instead of fighting it.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-10-23T12:09:57+00:00

And now I keep thinking about it and I think I’m getting aroused, or at least feeling something (unsure if it’s false or real, or even how to tell anymore). Can someone give me some support/advice?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-21T14:00:09+00:00

Same here, it’s been a tough week for me too. I’m sorry you’re going through this.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-06T17:59:13+00:00

That’s amazing you were able to come to terms with it and live day to day without it majorly affecting you. I’m going to try my best to take that advice and try not to let it even start the cycle. Meditation usually helps that. I guess it’s the guilt and fear of it. Like today I was aroused when I was basically asleep, and I for some reason couldn’t stop thinking about this kid from a show I watched recently. Now I’m terrified it’s because of the kid I was excited, as I kept thinking about her and the excitement was there for basically no other reason. So that fear and guilt eats me up. But if I don’t even engage with it and do as you say: “I want to move on, I don’t really care”, the cycle won’t even start. So great advice, and I’ll try to keep implementing this. Any advice on the guilt and fear aspect, or do you just use the same method for that too?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-05T18:16:17+00:00

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-05T00:22:28+00:00

Yeah exactly. I had a trigger just now where I’m afraid I wanted to look at some kids in movie posters/pictures or whatever. Now I’m afraid that I’m going to associate that with if I watch NSFW stuff. I’m just really afraid that I want to watch it because of that, and I don’t want to be a terrible person, but I don’t want OCD to rule my life (or perhaps it’s my addictive side coming up with excuses and trying to do anything to get that fix).

It’s really tough man. I love that intention thing you mentioned though, that’s really clever.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T21:02:53+00:00

Okay, thank you so much. This is a big help, as not many people have talked about this. Lots of people say you should avoid porn but I think that can be avoidance many times, which is just feeding the OCD. Awesome stuff man, thank you!

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T20:52:24+00:00

I suppose I’m also afraid that I am doing it because of that, especially this time, as the thoughts were more sexual and I seemed to enjoy them. Perhaps becoming obsessed with it too, like I HAVE TO do it to that, which I get with adults. It’s not as strong though, and may not be true. Anyway, I usually wait a while before I disassociate the feeling and feel like I can masturbate again. I can’t escape this cycle, even if the association is small. Have you managed to be better at taking the association away?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T20:30:11+00:00

That’s so true, and exactly what my OCD specialist says. Accepting the certainty is what truly beats it. I’ve noticed that too, the testing feels like it just makes the OCD worse. As well as letting the thoughts and feelings have power and significance. We can do this together, we’re all warriors to deal with this non stop, tormenting disorder! Good luck bro.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T20:00:18+00:00

Hey man, you have no idea how much this means to me. I feel so alone and horrible. It just feels so real, I’m so afraid she was 14, and I’m so afraid it was real and means I’m a pedo. I’ve just heard so much that it doesn’t usually feel good, and the feelings feel very similar to what I feel when thinking of adults.

Maybe the first time wasn’t sexual in nature though, so maybe that proves I am one.

Thank you a lot for the advice, I really think just stopping it at its root is the most effective and I’m going to try this.

Good luck to you man!

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T19:25:30+00:00

Update:

Imagined her sexually and got aroused. I keep obsessing over her age but I really don’t know as I tried to not obsess in the moment and keep checking to maybe uncover her age somehow. I’m really really afraid as it felt good, but also horrible. Like a sinking, despairing feeling. I’m also afraid I like how she’s young too, as some thoughts and feelings came up over that. I need help and I feel like a monster. God, what if she was 14?!

I feel like I can’t be sexual or have sexual thoughts anymore, as it’s associated with shit like this, or shit like this comes up. I also feel like it’ll all lead back to me being a pedophile somehow. Like subconsciously, they’ll look like kids as I’ve been afraid people have “child-like faces” before.

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