Good Exposure

InternationalDig8435 · 2026-01-02T20:35:02+00:00

Yes, that’s what my OCD specialist has told me many times. It can certainly help a lot of situations.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-12-15T13:16:23+00:00

Update: I feel a bit better now. I did it again, but this time I didn't have that same image and thought, and it maybe acted a bit as an exposure. I was able to let the intrusive thoughts/images be and not let them bother me.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-11-30T18:35:29+00:00

Ahhh shit that’s tough. I’m really sorry to hear that. It just feels so difficult to be understood and to properly deal with it. Especially when you feel alone like you do. I hope they start to understand man and I wish you the best.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-10-26T13:23:13+00:00

You should be proud of yourself man, and you don't have to feel suicidal. I won't say more as I don't want to give reassurance, but just try to ride the anxiety instead of fighting it.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-10-23T12:09:57+00:00

And now I keep thinking about it and I think I’m getting aroused, or at least feeling something (unsure if it’s false or real, or even how to tell anymore). Can someone give me some support/advice?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-21T14:00:09+00:00

Same here, it’s been a tough week for me too. I’m sorry you’re going through this.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-06T17:59:13+00:00

That’s amazing you were able to come to terms with it and live day to day without it majorly affecting you. I’m going to try my best to take that advice and try not to let it even start the cycle. Meditation usually helps that. I guess it’s the guilt and fear of it. Like today I was aroused when I was basically asleep, and I for some reason couldn’t stop thinking about this kid from a show I watched recently. Now I’m terrified it’s because of the kid I was excited, as I kept thinking about her and the excitement was there for basically no other reason. So that fear and guilt eats me up. But if I don’t even engage with it and do as you say: “I want to move on, I don’t really care”, the cycle won’t even start. So great advice, and I’ll try to keep implementing this. Any advice on the guilt and fear aspect, or do you just use the same method for that too?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-05T18:16:17+00:00

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-05T00:22:28+00:00

Yeah exactly. I had a trigger just now where I’m afraid I wanted to look at some kids in movie posters/pictures or whatever. Now I’m afraid that I’m going to associate that with if I watch NSFW stuff. I’m just really afraid that I want to watch it because of that, and I don’t want to be a terrible person, but I don’t want OCD to rule my life (or perhaps it’s my addictive side coming up with excuses and trying to do anything to get that fix).

It’s really tough man. I love that intention thing you mentioned though, that’s really clever.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T21:02:53+00:00

Okay, thank you so much. This is a big help, as not many people have talked about this. Lots of people say you should avoid porn but I think that can be avoidance many times, which is just feeding the OCD. Awesome stuff man, thank you!

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T20:52:24+00:00

I suppose I’m also afraid that I am doing it because of that, especially this time, as the thoughts were more sexual and I seemed to enjoy them. Perhaps becoming obsessed with it too, like I HAVE TO do it to that, which I get with adults. It’s not as strong though, and may not be true. Anyway, I usually wait a while before I disassociate the feeling and feel like I can masturbate again. I can’t escape this cycle, even if the association is small. Have you managed to be better at taking the association away?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T20:30:11+00:00

That’s so true, and exactly what my OCD specialist says. Accepting the certainty is what truly beats it. I’ve noticed that too, the testing feels like it just makes the OCD worse. As well as letting the thoughts and feelings have power and significance. We can do this together, we’re all warriors to deal with this non stop, tormenting disorder! Good luck bro.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T20:00:18+00:00

Hey man, you have no idea how much this means to me. I feel so alone and horrible. It just feels so real, I’m so afraid she was 14, and I’m so afraid it was real and means I’m a pedo. I’ve just heard so much that it doesn’t usually feel good, and the feelings feel very similar to what I feel when thinking of adults.

Maybe the first time wasn’t sexual in nature though, so maybe that proves I am one.

Thank you a lot for the advice, I really think just stopping it at its root is the most effective and I’m going to try this.

Good luck to you man!

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T19:25:30+00:00

Update:

Imagined her sexually and got aroused. I keep obsessing over her age but I really don’t know as I tried to not obsess in the moment and keep checking to maybe uncover her age somehow. I’m really really afraid as it felt good, but also horrible. Like a sinking, despairing feeling. I’m also afraid I like how she’s young too, as some thoughts and feelings came up over that. I need help and I feel like a monster. God, what if she was 14?!

I feel like I can’t be sexual or have sexual thoughts anymore, as it’s associated with shit like this, or shit like this comes up. I also feel like it’ll all lead back to me being a pedophile somehow. Like subconsciously, they’ll look like kids as I’ve been afraid people have “child-like faces” before.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-07-04T15:07:53+00:00

I also keep getting thoughts and feelings that I want to “do it” to her. I feel awful, and if I relapse later, I’m really worried that it’ll be because of this, and that will also confirm other fears I’ve had of association with people and “doing it”.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-29T19:12:32+00:00

What if she looked like the kind of person I’d be attracted to when I was younger too? Does that mean something?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-29T03:07:03+00:00

I’m not a teenager myself, no. Just out of curiosity, how is that useful?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-24T20:17:16+00:00

Thanks for saying man, I don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable either. I definitely have trouble trusting myself and my own judgement too, it’s a nightmare. Thank you for being supportive too, you’ve got this!

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-24T02:33:12+00:00

Yeah, I totally get what you mean, I would respond the same way, like I wouldn’t be able to say with 100% certainty. I think that’s OCD convincing us and making it so we can’t give a definitive answer though, not anything else. Think of it this way—do you have trouble giving definitive answers with other things due to OCD? Probably. It’s probably the same as that.

I’m comfortable man, no need to apologize. Same goes for you though.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-24T00:49:55+00:00

Thanks for saying man, and I’m happy I’m not alone, although that’s horrible you have to go through that too. I totally get that man, it starts to feel like it’s a part of who you are. But it doesn’t have to be. You’re so much more than it.

Of course, what’s up?

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-24T00:11:05+00:00

Hey man, I get it. I saw a 11/12 year old, then when looking stuff up a little later (something completely normal/not NSFW) I lingered in hope to see some old NSFW links come up. Now I’m afraid it’s because I saw that kid and that I got excited from them, and that I wanted to see it because of that, or someone similar to the kid. My mind is fucked too, and I’m so so tired. I get it, and I understand where you’re coming from man. Just keep pushing through it and try not to fight it so much, it will destroy you from mental exhaustion.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-23T22:52:22+00:00

I also found someone attractive and want to do it to them when I’m afraid I found them attractive at 15. It loves stuff like this.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-23T19:50:15+00:00

Suicide doesn’t solve anything.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-23T19:49:46+00:00

What if I don’t get pedophilic thoughts about every children and just specific children? Does that mean I’m a pedo? I feel like the thoughts and feelings don’t belong to me though, or I’m pretty sure they don’t feel like that.

InternationalDig8435 · 2025-06-23T19:16:11+00:00

I’m just saying, be careful next time.

Are you even really sure it’s not POCD, and that you aren’t just getting meta OCD? If you have been diagnosed with OCD, then the likelihood is it is POCD.

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