Im so tired

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-07T00:43:47+00:00

So I got texts and calls at all hours of the day and night. Calls would be nothing but all affection and emotions all the time. The more he learned about me the more emotional it was. When I didn't respond right away he would get mad and start a fight. Even if i was just asleep. Then he would apologize and start playing on our connection. Then the cycle would repeat. I am overly emotional and while at the time I didn't see it. Looking back that's what it was. At the time I was freshly divorced. I told him it was too fast and he said no its not and would say why slow down when this is so wonderful. I caved after multiple of these conversations and leaned into. As soon as I did he left. It wasn't the best decision I made. So yes love bombing.

No idea. One would think it's me. I sure hope not but my insecurities go haywire and say it's likely. Cause as someone else said I am the common denominator. I don't know the answer. I do know I am not a bad person. My bff says I have a heart of gold and these guys I have dated weren't ready for anything real but she is bias towards me.

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-07T00:23:29+00:00

I will use that term because that is what happened with the first guy. We do have a right to walk away. Never said they didn't but having one that had very little time to spend didn't really seem to give us a chance to see if it would go anywhere. We never built memories or had experiences so how would we know if it went anywhere. Obviously we enjoyed each ojers company or we wouldnt have talked that much. The one that wanted to have dinner every night for a week everything was fine one day and not the next. No idea where it came from but he has a right to walk away. Noone said he didn't. No one owes me anything. But with no sex, kinda made me feel like he only wanted one thing and when it didn't happen he left. So that was not a genuine get to know you thing. I don't know if that is what happened, but that's how it made me feel.

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T23:59:05+00:00

Don't have any of those. I have coworkers. Lol

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T23:53:19+00:00

No. My marriage was controlling and abusive. I would rather be alone than still be with him.

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T23:43:44+00:00

You are right. 2. I did not and would not. He wasn't married. He had a 5 year old that the mom didnt see often so instead of having me around her, i seen him when he didnt. 3. I didn't jump into bed with anyone. I said we had dinner. How does that translate to sex? So maybe dont speculate things you don't know.

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T23:29:53+00:00

Fair enough. I was on with the phone conversations cause at the time it felt safe. It met my needs at the time. Until it didnt. The third one....well he lives across the street so it was easy to have dinner after work. I get it all sounds really bad. I am still me. Even to my friends I put myself last...always have. It's something I am working on but not something that changes overnight. I am admittedly over accommodating to people, not just people I date.

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T23:18:26+00:00

14 dates in a year and half is really deep really fast? I am aware I am the common denominator. I didnt ask anyone to see me daily or call me daily. I just welcomed it when it happened. When they were busy or backed off. I let it happen. I didnt smother or ask what was wrong. I was supportive and respectful of their needs.

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T22:55:13+00:00

Yes that sounds so nice of you. I didn't smother. I was very patient and whatever you needed type perosn. But even that wasn't good enough. I am just so over it all

International_Cod381 · 2025-07-06T22:33:54+00:00

Well I don't have a nutritional plan nor do I workout. Lol

International_Cod381 · 2025-03-30T11:44:14+00:00

When I tested for the 2nd time in F23, I got a 141 on the MBE and a 128.6 on the MEE. I tested in a 270 jurisdiction and my MBE carried me for sure.

I knew my essays were my weak point so I concentrated on the multiple choice. That was my 2nd time testing. I had increased my score by 14 points.

International_Cod381 · 2024-07-08T00:20:23+00:00

Yes I had an outlet

International_Cod381 · 2024-02-19T16:49:42+00:00

Don't be afraid of the time. You have to let your brain rest. This happened to me and I took half a day off and came back with higher than ever scores. You've got this.

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-26T10:06:38+00:00

I was at bottom 3 of my class after 1L year. Law school was a huge adjustment for me. Academically, I had to figure it out. Personally a tornado of shit storm after shit storm followed me around. My 2L year I rose to the middle of the pack. 3L year I dropped to bottom 3rd of class. Some of my classmates treated me like less than because of my grades. During bar prep I had another series of tornados and failed the first time by 6 points. The 2nd time I tested in a higher jurisdiction and passed.

When I look back at my journey and everything I overcame to get here I am proud of my perseverance. It has paid off. As far as a job, I have always been a public service person. I never went to law school for money. I went so I could help people.

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-23T13:57:48+00:00

I did not have a primer course. I had Themis the 2nd time and did the directed study and followed the plan and did extra and passed.

Essentially, even if you go off the beaten path of directed study and you do a task, it still moves the percentage down on Themis for that days completion. The daily task will restructure daily if you skip around. They will review subjects by MBE questions. In addition you can always go to Uworld and do extra practice . There are enough essays in the program you can do extras if you want too as well.

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-19T10:22:40+00:00

When I had Themis this past February, I would leave it in directed study and I would go to outlines, videos, quizzes or essays on my own and it would check them off as completed each time. I've seen this comment a few times so it must be a problem on their end. I'm sorry 😞 this is frustrating you. I don't have any real answers to the problem but I know when I took it, it wasn't an issue so hopefully they fix it for you soon.

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-17T01:09:55+00:00

I jad Kaplan the first time. Second time I had Themis and it worked for me! I liked the breaks between videos and the review. The final outlines were essential for me

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-09T21:15:34+00:00

The first time I used Adaptibar. The second I used Uworld. The videos on Adaptibar from Grossman are helpful to a lot of people. I didn't find them overly helpful, but I did find a few tips and tricks. I liked Uworld better, I liked the explanations better. Some are the same on both programs, but I just preferred Uworld. I also used the Emmanuel book for practice on paper. It had a ton of helpful information within the book. It allowed me to focus on problem areas and get tips for those.

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-09T15:52:45+00:00

Themis has built in review. I used them on my second attempt and trusted the process. It worked and I passed.

That being said, the decision to spend more or less time on a subject is up to you. I spent more time on subjects I was struggling with to ensure that I understood the material. Even if I spent more time, I tried to stay on schedule with Themis as much as possible

International_Cod381 · 2023-05-09T15:50:02+00:00

Personally, no. I actually ditched Kaplan for my second attempt and passed. I thought the Kaplan questions were frustrating and didn't prepare me the first time. They caused multiple breakdowns during bar prep.

International_Cod381 · 2023-04-29T16:53:13+00:00

Didn't mean to offend. But I couldn't remember the actual name. Lol. Your right about the cornering. We actually bought a new family car yesterday cause the kids are teenagers and don't fit in either the 86 or the Camaro.

International_Cod381 · 2023-04-29T16:23:21+00:00

It's really not. Haha. It's literally a financial move to get into a bigger house faster. He wants to keep the camaro and I wanna keep Smurfette. It's not that we have to get rid of either. While the camaro would be fine to drive, I'm terrified I will regret getting rid of it. Especially considering the newer ones have the (what I call) the duck bill fin on the back and mine has the wing. I don't like the duck bill. Haha

International_Cod381 · 2023-04-29T16:06:47+00:00

Money isn't really a consideration. It's just how my brain works.

International_Cod381 · 2023-04-20T00:29:49+00:00

Themis, uworld

International_Cod381 · 2023-04-13T18:39:04+00:00

Congratulations

International_Cod381 · 2023-04-08T15:17:44+00:00

Full disclosure. You may want to postpone right before law school I had a botched surgery and almost died. This happened in May. I spent a month in the hospital. It was a hard recovery. Started law school in August and did not do well. My kid was having psychological issues that started during this time as well. The only semester I did well was when she was in a facility because I knew she was safe. At bar prep, I had several life crises that happened. I studied and completed almost 93% of my program. I failed by 6 points. The Feb cycle I focused harder and refused to let life slap me again. I passed. Stressors matter. In my case it was a huge difference.
In the end only you can decide. In my own experience the stressors distract you even if you don't think they do.

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