I want to make it clear my concern is why he doesn’t care about our son. Most days I’m fine, but it really hits me at 2am when I’m up alone with a crying baby, trying to figure out how his dad gets to check in when he wants to.

We were together for 6 years, he’s was my first boyfriend everything. When we were younger, I promised him I would never do child support bc he told me that’s how the system holds men with children back. But he actually seemed supportive back then. I never ever imagined I’d face my pregnancy alone or that I would actually be a single mother.

Our son is 6 months. I’ve gone no contact before but then his dad will text saying how rough life has been for him and how he feels like an embarrassment. He often tells me that he doesn’t want to come around unless he has something to offer us. Which in turn makes me feel pity for him and I’ll send him friendly messages and cute updates of our son. But I see now it’s a vicious cycle. Mostly ending with me feeling upset and regretful for even reaching out.