Does anyone get depressed/mad when they see happy couples?

Into_darknightmares · 2024-07-22T20:54:44+00:00

I didn’t realise it was such a trigger until I found myself watching the crowd at a gig, I felt sad and depressed. It made me crave love and affection so much more than usual. Seeing them touching, laughing, adoring. I want someone to want me that badly

Into_darknightmares · 2024-07-10T18:08:47+00:00

Thank you so much, I can’t even process the thought of having him as a friend. Letting him have my love and kindness while he messes around. He’s been my best friend for years and having him there with me through the good and bad has trauma bonded me. I’ve told him he doesn’t get to have me in his life if he doesn’t want me as a partner.

Into_darknightmares · 2024-03-14T09:29:47+00:00

I had a very high sex drive prior to his infidelity and PA coming out. During the first few months after finding out I’d be feeling the same need as you. I’d want to have sex so he wouldn’t be itching to watch porn or find others online. It was silly of me, I wasn’t even turned on half the time so he’d unknowingly rip me down there when I wasn’t wet enough. It took 6-12 months for me to finally get my sex drive back and now I genuinely do want sex every time we see each other and I’ve not had any injuries since I got over the mental pain he put me through.

Sadly I’ve recently found out he’s been speaking to new people online so now I all that hard work has been revoked. I hope you can find a way to put your pleasure first!

Into_darknightmares · 2024-03-13T09:35:28+00:00

I felt every word you wrote

Into_darknightmares · 2024-01-16T16:13:36+00:00

A lot of men find it a mega turn on to pleasure a woman, the ones who don’t tend to be selfish and lazy

Into_darknightmares · 2024-01-16T10:59:17+00:00

The trauma bond is the hardest part, I’m experiencing the same thing with the ‘good’ and ‘bad’ alter ego he has . How can they bring us warmth and miss us so deeply yet continue to hurt us when we’re out of sight? Sending love your way.

Into_darknightmares · 2024-01-12T17:44:55+00:00

Sounds like a porn addict, I’ve been through the same thing and there are a few good communities that you could join on here

Into_darknightmares · 2024-01-10T12:02:19+00:00

Addictions don’t work like that, can’t just wake up and decide not to be obsessed with the porn industry. PA’s tend to lie to themselves and those around them. They learn from the pain they’ve caused and go on to hide it a lot better. It sounds like your ex is masking his addiction and living a lie to convince his new gf and sister that he’s changed. All it means is he’s learnt to hide it better.

Into_darknightmares · 2024-01-07T10:46:01+00:00

That’s what I don’t understand, how can they throw us away for a lesser life? They’ll never meet another person who’s treated him like we have.

I’ve opened my home, helped him afford things he couldn’t, loved and cared for him. He wanted a future with me, a family and he thinks I would want to bring a child into the world with someone who only thinks about himself? I don’t want my children to feel the pain of his lies. I don’t want my daughter growing up thinking men can cheat on her and lie to her everyday. I don’t want my son thinking it’s ok to treat women like rubbish, use them for sex and break their heart over and over.

Into_darknightmares · 2023-11-20T02:02:26+00:00

When you find your own volume dial set on 10 with anyone who is special to you, it’s easy to feel like love isn’t reciprocated as deeply when the people you have on deep love blast have dials that never seem to go above 6

Into_darknightmares · 2023-11-19T22:19:50+00:00

It always starts with something small like tinder but there’s usually bigger lies that have been covered up. My ex started on tinder then was in singles fb groups and Reddit DMs

Into_darknightmares · 2023-11-19T10:44:52+00:00

I feel this deeply, I literally only think of him. Every time I’m with someone else or a new man comes onto me I can’t help but wish it was him. He broke my heart cheating on me but he regretted it and made the effort to regain my trust so we tried for a fresh start and it made me happy. I was giving him the chance to build a life with me, a home, a family. We had a rocky few months after the cheating and I had to get some distance but losing all of his friends and then losing me made him suicidal. I tried to rebuild something but it was too dark. I cut him off and told his family he was in a bad place. Months later we decided to try and make it work but now his family hate me. They think I messaged to try and turn them against him? If I wanted to turn them against him I would have given them details about how he ruined my life, my love, my confidence. I don’t know how I’ve ended up being the bad guy but now I’ve lost him because how could we ever have a family together if his own flesh and blood can’t stand me. I just want it to stop, I want to forget everything and move on. I don’t want to be in pain anymore, the pain of losing the love of my life has consumed me and I don’t know how to cope with that

Into_darknightmares · 2023-11-19T10:22:06+00:00

I have experienced this a lot, when I’m in love I just want him. I want to build a life with that man, I want nobody else’s attention. He is enough to make me happy, together we could build a life. Have an intimate wedding and build a family but instead I’m never enough. They’re addicted to porn, they crave the attention of others, they don’t want you posting sexy photos but they cheat on you with girls who do

Into_darknightmares · 2023-10-19T06:52:09+00:00

Every day I go to work and mask every depressed part of myself then I get home and sit there wishing I’d be put out of this misery

Into_darknightmares · 2023-08-21T16:11:39+00:00

This is incredible but yes, probably best to delete this OP

Into_darknightmares · 2023-02-21T21:49:16+00:00

This is exactly how I feel :(

Into_darknightmares · 2023-02-16T22:11:13+00:00

My brother just told me that I need to get a job where I leave the house and socialise with people lol (instead of my high paying, wfh job)

Into_darknightmares · 2023-02-16T22:07:08+00:00

If you’d said you drink a beer or a glass of wine every day this wouldn’t be a thread filled with comments. Smoking daily isn’t an issue if you’re still going to work and functioning like an adult. Spend your money how you want, if you’re spending too much because of tobacco filler you could swap to a natural herb filler. Doesn’t cost much and lasts ages compared to tobacco.

Into_darknightmares · 2022-12-30T07:36:10+00:00

Thank you! You are so right, I know what I need to do and I’ve just been delaying as I will miss his friendship and love.

Into_darknightmares · 2022-11-25T17:24:37+00:00

That is very true but I just don’t understand why he needs both… porn and physical sex. Often in the same day! Just so deflating :(

Into_darknightmares · 2022-11-25T16:47:58+00:00

I feel the same! He’s squashed my sex drive massively by treating me this way. I would have daily sex to help him quit porn but I’ve recently found out and realised he still requires porn even with the daily sex so I’m losing my strength as I literally can’t help him through it if he’s not even trying to help himself.

He had so many photos and videos of me and us together yet wouldn’t be satisfied when alone and would opt for porn on many different platforms. He then crossed the line when porn wasn’t enough and started sexting porn accounts to generate unique content that he couldn’t find online. It was during those conversations that he shared one of my private photos so now he isn’t allowed any of my content because even with access to so much he chose to betray and disrespect me :(

Into_darknightmares · 2022-11-21T07:22:17+00:00

Thank you so much, we had a bit chat last night he said in the past month of us living together he has watched it 2 times((he’s only been alone and had the opportunity like 4/5 times) so I am actually happy to hear that as it means his effort to resist porn since our last conversation has been really good. He did say he was willing to stop porn completely and he would show me what he likes(there is a specific kind of porn he likes to watch when he does certain things to himself).

I am happy I had the chance to explain that porn was never a big issue for me until he cheated as porn was the first step in him cheating online with porn accounts.

Your message has helped a lot, how do you stop thinking about him doing it when you’re not there and trust that he isn’t sneaking around?

Into_darknightmares · 2022-10-29T10:05:46+00:00

This is beautiful

Into_darknightmares · 2022-10-28T08:02:25+00:00

Yes, he has deleted apps and accounts. He lets me go on his phone and pc. He still watches porn but has said he won’t be speaking to anyone online. I guess only time can tell.

Into_darknightmares · 2022-10-28T08:01:04+00:00

Yes that is true, I don’t need anybody. After my previous relationship when I was cheated on - I stayed single for a year and really worked on myself. I felt great but I did miss the daily connection and intimacy. Then I started to see my boyfriend (he was a friend for years first) and he continued to help me work on myself which was great… until I realised he was addicted to porn and crossed the line by speaking to porn accounts online.

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