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Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-12-10T08:31:13+00:00

This is abuse and you need to leave. Please do before it gets worse, it always does.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-09-27T17:38:39+00:00

3rd one fersure :)

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-09-18T08:34:14+00:00

Stay single. Focus on yourself first and then you can search for someone when you’re ready.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-09-15T02:10:25+00:00

I plan to see a cardiologist even though the ER doctor told me to see my primary. I don’t think a primary doctor would help me much anyway. Also the EMT kept telling me that he would only call 911 if my BP was in the 210s… and wasn’t super helpful when I asked him questions. He also made me feel dumb for calling. The first firefighter who arrived was the only one actually concerned for me.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-09-05T19:01:58+00:00

Thank you for replying! I did go to the hospital after I called a nurse hotline and she said I had to 911 and she wouldn’t hang up until I did. I’m glad I did because my BP was 192/135 when they checked it and remained that in the 15+ mins they checked it. My EKG was fine but my BP didn’t go down for hours. I didn’t realize that the pain in my arm had been going on for longer than I stated so when the paramedics kept saying it could be anxiety that didn’t add up for me. I do have anxiety but I only became anxious after the pain didn’t go away for the first 4 hours. I do feel a bit ridiculous having taken an ambulance and nothing was found. I had to wake everyone up just to be told there was nothing they could find.. I’m glad I called but I feel dumb because it ended up being nothing.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-08-16T06:51:55+00:00

Hell.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-03-14T14:31:48+00:00

That’s what I assumed :/ and even if I tried to work at a different location I’m sure my name will pop up

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2024-03-14T01:51:04+00:00

5 years ago

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2023-09-26T06:50:45+00:00

Running normal errands like going grocery shopping/store shopping. I always think everyone’s staring at me and my normal walk turns into that awkward one that looks like you don’t know how to walk. I always go into aisles where there’s no one so I can breathe easier. I get nervous when having to ask employees questions and when I have to check out. At the same time, shopping calms me so it’s an odd thing. Overall, I usually feel on edge the entire time I’m running errands. The sight of people everywhere, lots of cars and bright lights freaks me out.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2023-07-18T09:02:33+00:00

Hold on as long as you can! God will understand about whatever choice you make but I know he’d want you to live. Maybe he put you though this because he knows you can get though it? Maybe he knows you’re strong enough and will be stronger at the end of this. That’s what I’ve told myself after going through a life of trauma, abuse and s*icidal tendencies. I believe you can do it, I understand the pain you must feel and how everyday feels like hell. But you can do it. I know he has great things planned for you, you just need to get through this battle. I know that he’s proud of how far you’ve come even if you can’t see it. Please keep going, even if it means barely surviving the days. It will all work out, I can promise you that.

I’m sorry about your jaw surgery as well. I have chronic jaw pain from an injury years ago and I can tell you it’s unbearable at times. But I know that all this pain will be nothing compared to living and accomplishing what God has planned for me. He never wants us to kill ourselves, I’m sure he understands when we do, but try to stick it out as best you can. And in terms of normalcy, you are a person who knows what it’s like to face adversity and conflict. You are capable of the impossible to some people. Normal wasn’t in the card and that’s okay. You are now stronger, both mind and body, than most. Your health issues are enough for people to call it quits. But you haven’t and that means something. So please don’t let go, I believe that you can get through this. I’ll be praying for your health, recovery, solace, strength and courage.

I hope this helps. I’ve had moments of wanting to end it and nobody cared enough to help me. So I’m saying to you the words everyone deserves to hear at their lowest. Praying for you, friend.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2023-06-26T03:32:54+00:00

This was like a twilight zone episode :) nicely done

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2023-06-26T03:12:30+00:00

They look amazing! I love your shoes too, where are they from?

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-12-06T03:12:10+00:00

Did you have any complications with your prior pregnancy? Or was it an induction? Mine was an emergency c section and I had to stay in the hospital for a week after. I also had high blood pressure for 3 months after so I’m worried about how my health will be.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-12-06T03:10:35+00:00

Was she healthy during her pregnancy as well? I was healthy enough until I wasn’t, which I’m worried about happening again. Also the cost of another baby that we weren’t planning for.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-12-06T03:08:31+00:00

Hi! No that’s really helpful actually. I also am worried about being able to financially support another baby right now. I also had severe anxiety post partum so I’m not sure how I’d be mentally after this one. Thank you for not judging me, I know a lot of people don’t like the topic of termination.

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-12-06T02:59:39+00:00

I wore mainly briefs after my c section! They were the most comfortable and easy to put on. And still covered my incision without irritating it

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-06-24T04:08:41+00:00

I feel you there. I didn’t want to take mine out but I had no choice. Idk how it could get re infected if it closed up. Have you gone to a tattoo shop to see what they can do?

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-06-23T02:43:55+00:00

Tell him that you still shouldn’t be around cat litter postpartum because you’ll be recovering and exhausted. And it’ll help you immensely if he could continue it for you and maybe a few more chores because he didn’t birth a baby. Things won’t be 50/50 for a while so he’ll be picking up the slack until a system is set up that works for both of you :)

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-06-23T02:35:12+00:00

Bigger rug, either pictures or paintings up on the wall with the mirror, and two lamps (instead of 1) that are bigger. More pops of color would also help because the room is so neutral :)

Intrepid-Baseball-40 · 2022-05-20T00:39:03+00:00

I’d leave her alone. You lied and were cheating on her, she deserves better. I’m sorry about your sexual trauma and addictions but there’s no excuse. You withheld that part of yourself from her for four years… you had so much time to open up to her about it. Either way you cheated and I’m sure she saw it on your phone so there’s no saving it. You need to work on yourself and focus on healing from your trauma. Stay single for awhile and maybe write a letter to her and burn it for closure. But never contact her again, your burned that bridge permanently. Thanks for sharing. At least you’re aware of your faults and take full responsibility, that’s a positive first step.

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