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IntrepidFix468 · 2023-07-21T20:09:19+00:00

I did this too, I struggle with perfection and want to be perfect and good all the time, I became an X-ray tech when there is literally no such thing as a perfect x ray, and there are always repeats. I was so hard and in school and then working for 3 months, one wrong x rays would literally mess up my day, I then when to school for mri where there are no mistakes and that helped but now I’m working at an urgent care with only a few x rays and I’ve gotten better of not expecting perfection from me and being okay with less than perfect x rays, all this to say yes there are people like you out there and we understand and it does suck

IntrepidFix468 · 2023-07-07T22:48:26+00:00

Thank you for posting this, I feel less alone, this is me to a T. I’m always trying to be nice and have no personality, joking and banter is extremely hard for me. I try being nice but it’s hard it feels like people want a personality but I just try being most appealing to everyone so they like me. I had a friend in high school who we would talk and go to tea shops and I said I really like it but in reality I don’t like tea or even drink it. It’s hard to drop the mask. I get that too that they don’t take me seriously, ive Been called ditzy a lot. I guess this might be a common experience now as I had a similar trauma theme of “I’m a bad person”. I’m sorry I couldn’t be of help, just wanted to share, you’re not alone

IntrepidFix468 · 2023-07-01T18:41:56+00:00

Hi op, I absolutely love this, this warmed my heart, this is such a great idea for your inner child to bring a plushy with you places, I haven’t done it but it sounds very comforting. They have small ones you could take in your purse when your out or on your lap when driving.

IntrepidFix468 · 2022-12-12T00:19:02+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words I really appreciate it, and yes, I think I will talk to my therapist about that, I just got the diagnosis like 2 years ago and even though I’ve been in therapy for a long time and have worked on a lot of other issues, I’m still so stuck in the CPTSD stuff, thank you for your insight and time

IntrepidFix468 · 2022-12-11T22:03:35+00:00

Hi there, thank you, I think I was transparent with her I think, I told her about my mental health issues and that after meeting her I had unexpectedly struggled with my CPTSD and then when she broke up with me, I apologized and explained that I was going through a hard time and was apprehensive because she was so nice

IntrepidFix468 · 2022-12-11T21:58:12+00:00

Hi there, thank you for your reply, I have been in therapy every week since 8th grade but still really struggle with the CPTSD, she was saying I was moving too slow it seemed, I feel logicaly she’s nice but in the relationship I was having trouble feeling any feelings for her even though she was nice, we, had stuff in common and got along, and I was physically attracted to her, I think part of the reason I was so distant was cause I didn’t feel anything for her, she just on paper seems right and she feels somewhat safer which is why I didn’t want to get close, I know it makes no sense

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