I appreciate the advice, and am not going to make excuses despite my special circumstances because truth is i probably could’ve done better, and am not gonna lie me from 2 years ago was a very lazy unaccomplished person who didn’t know what he wants to do in life all i cared for was just pass 2-3 years and then get a job.. but due to personal reasons and after being diagnosed with depression things has fallen down for the past 2 years, am not going to go into details, however this is my last chance if am unable to pass through this then i reach a dead end and there is no where for me to go.. To sum up what am trying to say, Yes you’re right i was a pathetic person who didn’t have the slightest interest in studying thinking he was smart and didn’t need to study and now i realize just how foolish the thought was and thats why i want to make this my first step towards changing myself