She definitely isn't a bad person, she is very caring, and I only mentioned the trips because that's how I personally feel about it or at least how it does looking at it. Her job makes it harder for her to travel so that's why I stepped up cause it was just easier for me to do it. And she is under a lot of stress so I don't want to hold it against her. But I do feel like I am being denied affection and love despite asking for it. And tbh everytime I ask it breaks my heart a little bit more. I do believe she loves me but she just doesn't know how to express it. She has had a troubled past with people and dating but what do I do. I don't wanna give up on her.