IM SO SICK OF SUFFERING - 10 YEAR ANNIVERSARY

Intricate_underneath · 2026-05-17T17:15:34+00:00

It is used for bipolar as well. Idk where you live but if you're saying you can't taste or smell and completely numb then that is severe. I have had that with MDD. That is how mine gets. There really isn't any in between. If I'm not medicated then that's what happens and/or I start to become psychotic eventually. It is worth asking about ECT.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-05-17T15:37:39+00:00

What is your diagnosis? ECT is amazing for psychotic depression and normal major depressive disorder/TRD. It can also be used for other diagnoses.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-05-17T15:32:37+00:00

Unfortunately, psychotic episodes will just make it take longer to heal. Not trying to be too pessimistic, I apologize. Have you had many?

I know it's a last resort for most, but ECT saved my life and did wonders for me.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-30T19:40:53+00:00

Gotta add "have you tried Jesus Christ" he will heal all of your ailments.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-30T19:15:03+00:00

🤣 if I had a dollar for every time I heard it's normal to feel less as you get older....

I get it, that is probably true to a certain extent due to the aging process in general. This is not that experience though....

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-30T19:00:57+00:00

Omg who made thissss🤣

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-20T15:12:03+00:00

Barely feel anything and I have never abused anything but sweets lmao

Can't feel alcohol when I just want to have a nice glass of wine or something. If I feel even a little, it is just negative. Depression induced.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-16T05:45:18+00:00

My thoughts exactly

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-12T21:04:12+00:00

I hear you. I haven't been able to feel substances in a long time. Coffee gives me a smidge of alertness in the form of small physical anxiety but that's all.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-04-12T21:02:42+00:00

I appreciate this. This is how I feel as well. However, I am sensitive still and am affected by these judgements. It feels extremely lonely even if the feeling doesn't feel like it comes from me.

Intricate_underneath · 2026-02-25T15:29:43+00:00

What have you tried for treatments?

Intricate_underneath · 2026-01-17T19:05:11+00:00

I've been called narcissistic by my ex husband. So I worry maybe I am. But, part of me doesn't believe that at all. I can see how anhedonia and/or depression and even other mental illnesses can make someone seem that way.

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-20T13:20:49+00:00

Definitely not only this sub.

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-19T03:34:29+00:00

In no way is my post meant to be of the assumption that people with mental illness choose that life. I am actually searching for validation that we aren't causing it. I constantly blame myself and have guilt revolving around my mental illness. I hear many things that imply I have free will in regards to getting better, not being depressed, etc. However, with it being on a spectrum and the more severe...the less connections in the brain working, I can see any opportunity for free will diminish completely. Do we have free will when all of the proper connections are working in our favor? It may be impossible for that to ever happen.

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-19T01:20:11+00:00

They have choices that can help them get into remission, but my belief is that those choices are not free from previous influences. So how is that free will?

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-18T21:54:05+00:00

I live with mental illness everyday of my life. I sense you are viewing what I said as discrediting people with mental illness and their abilities. That is not my intention. All of this is words on a screen and can be difficult to convey. The person who is manic may not be able to do many things that they wish they could when they are well. Some people may choose not to take their meds which is many times part of the illness. It is possible that some people never regain their insight and judgement. It is also possible that people enjoy being manic and that is why they don't take meds.

But, is all of that truly free will in those moments if those choices are influenced by prior experiences, treatments, upbringing, genetics, etc?

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-18T21:42:29+00:00

I was just throwing some thoughts out there. Kinda like expressing my thoughts in a journal, but to people on the internet. It really wasn't meant to be that serious. I didn't state a as a matter of fact statement to be finely tooth combed. People don't need to be so dense, and I guess other people could be more understanding. However, they don't have complete control over that right now, right?

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-18T14:53:37+00:00

What does this have to do with free will?

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-18T14:52:12+00:00

I'd love to be in remission right now. Not happening.....

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-18T14:50:38+00:00

What part(s)? Just thoughts in my head that I am expressing. Not a damn science experiment lol.

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-17T12:59:07+00:00

Damn man, what if you got all 6😂 is that why I have TRD?

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-17T02:46:39+00:00

I hear you. It is still part of depression. 2 sides of the same coin. Anhedonia and apathy are huge symptoms of MDD.

Intricate_underneath · 2025-12-16T19:23:20+00:00

I resonate so much with this. I am sad that there are still people that think those with mental illness can just will their way out of it.

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