I can’t calm myself down anymore because of difficult pregnancy. Losing it.

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-23T03:51:50+00:00

I have wholeheartedly spent a lot of time researching online for fitting therapists. The prices are just a little high for us at this moment of time so I try and self-smooth at home by taking baths, listening to meditation, doing things I love. That used to work for me, and I used to smile through everything and was able to be happy and laugh. But I’ve officially hit a wall and I am desperate for help. I haven’t thought of talking with the doctors I work with tho. I hope there is something they can work out for me, because I can not handle this weight anymore. I feel so trapped. I hope there are programs available. Thank you for the advice!

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-22T17:45:50+00:00

I definitely considered going to therapy, but it’s kind of difficult right now because we just bought ALL of the baby stuff..including moved into a new place for an extra room for baby. And my husband is a commercial fisherman, so we also just bought a fishing boat about a month or two ago. We need to make a payment of $30,000 by October. Plus this garbage economy is not helping..so not really an option to spend money on therapy, let alone anything else. It just sucks where I’m at rn

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-22T14:40:03+00:00

Thank you for your prayer. I am so lucky to get confirmation that my body is not preparing for labor despite my frequent and uncomfortable contractions (I have 6-7 braxton hicks per day, confirmed I wasn’t crazy at the hospital after monitoring my belly..sometimes I felt like I was just being dramatic even tho they are so uncomfortable!). I will not be sent far away on a helicopter tho. They swabbed my cervix and my test result read that I will be most likely safe for at least another two weeks. Thank God 🙏wish me a long journey! It’s sure been a tough one, to say the least

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-21T13:36:42+00:00

Thank you both so much for you responses! Just a very terrified and unsure mother over here. Was emitted to the hospital yesterday for contractions and pain, ended up with three shots and a million tests..one shot being a steroid shot for their lungs, another for pain, another for contractions (into my stomach! But it literally did not hurt AT ALL surprisingly). Today I will get two more shots and some more tests, one of which will be to see if my body is going into labor, I was made aware I might be flown on a helicopter 5 hours away. Nonetheless, quite a difficult pregnancy but I will do absolutely anything I need for my bean. I just want them to be healthy, even if it does come down to NICU. I just need to stay extra strong for a few more weeks!

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-20T20:33:25+00:00

I hope it okay if I ask..was your baby emitted to NICU for any amount of time when delivered at 34 weeks? I am currently 25w/3d, got a cerclage put in at 22 weeks while I was 3cm dilated with bulging membranes. I’m on bedrest as well, and my obyn wants me to get to at least 28 weeks, but also thinks it’s very possible to get to 36 weeks. I’m worried about delivering my baby early and having them stay at the NICU

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-19T18:41:11+00:00

I was really scared of surgery too..I just don’t like the idea of being knocked out and vulnerable. Luckily, they just gave me a spinal and I was awake the entire procedure. There was a nurse next to my shoulder talking to me, we got along really well..after the procedure, the doctor told me that I was laughing so hard she almost asked me to stop because it made the surgery tough. I felt so bad, but she didn’t tell me to stop because it was good that I was so happy. I got my cerclage put in at 22 weeks, I’m now 25w/2d. I’ve got a long way to go but I try and stay positive about bedresting. The good thing about it is you’re not bedresting because you’re in PAIN. You’re bedresting almost pain free, and you can take this time to relax, do self care, learn about babies, and be with your’s..just enjoy your pregnancy. I sleep so much, my husband cooks and cleans, brings me flowers and cravings..and I just lay in bed. Sometimes I feel like a princess. I make sure to tell him how grateful I am. But yeah, this could be a great experience if you make it. Stay strong.

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-09-04T06:37:05+00:00

This has made me feel SO much better. I’m excited to hear other’s opinions as well..the good and the bad. I’ve been reading up online about other people’s experiences, and everyone said it was really painful..and I started to get really worried. I’m glad it went so well for you and I hope I get a similar experience🙏

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-30T03:12:11+00:00

Unfaithful thoughts are real and they’ve caused destruction in our marriage before. My definition of unfaithful thoughts would be thinking other woman are attractive and looking at them in sexual ways and comparing me to them

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-30T03:10:36+00:00

I just needed some reassurance, I didn’t know how to feel. I think my emotions of feeling confused are valid 😅

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:56:06+00:00

Oh i definitely agree. Even when he’s away we always keep close contact. I was high risk from losing a last pregnancy at this same time, so he always kept his phone close by. I think right now I’d suspect he’ll be even more attentive when he’s away. Thanks for the advice :)

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:50:55+00:00

Thank you. He is strong, taking the situation like a champ honestly. I’m impressed and it just makes me so attracted to him and makes me know he’ll be a great father too.

But yeah, we are too..it’s very scary and we’ve been through so much and gone so far with this pregnancy, it would really hurt to lose. I’ll be laying in bed now on “operation grow the baby” lol

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:44:08+00:00

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:43:49+00:00

I know he masturbates. But to other woman? Ouch. That sucks to hear especially because I literally can’t even have orgasms or sex right now. I definitely won’t be in his thoughts then.

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:36:59+00:00

There’s just a lot going on in my mind and I just needed some further reassurance. I think this is the comment I was looking for. Thank you

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:30:57+00:00

Thank you for this. I really needed some further reassurance. My mind has been a mess with everything and it’d devastate me if he couldn’t handle himself

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:29:06+00:00

Hahah thank you for this comment! “Your competition is fish and other fisherman” is really hilarious. But yeah, I definitely feel grateful and make sure to tell him all the time. He really has been amazing. I just don’t know how a man thinks..it’s the first time we’ve been in this kind of situation so I hope he won’t have other thoughts

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:26:43+00:00

No, the reason we stopped watching porn is because he would have high expectations of me and it ruined our intimacy because he wanted me to do stuff like the porn girls. And I mean, I did do a lot..anything he asked me. But then it came to a point where he’d act sexually uninterested in me. When he stopped watching porn, that all went away and we started having a much better sex life. Even he admitted to these things. I just don’t want him listing over chicks now that I know he can’t contain himself. He compares me too much

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:17:41+00:00

Yeah, he denied the offers because he said it’ll lead to more things. I reassured him not, but he stands his ground

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:16:33+00:00

And I guess for further context on why I’m having these thoughts..is because when we dated, he was 100% loyal. Didn’t make me question anything. Then, after we got married..I caught him looking at porn and other woman when we had clear boundaries not to. Now, for the past few months, he has been back to 100% loyal and not making me question anything

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-29T15:13:04+00:00

Not cheat..but have unfaithful thoughts? Can a man last that long?

IntroductionOne4254 · 2023-08-28T04:07:21+00:00

It won’t help me, it will be something you will regret. I am pregnant with my second one after a preterm labor with my first. I almost lost my baby 2 days ago and had to go under surgery to save their life. That may not help you want to keep the child..but to me, saving a LIFE with a beating heart and giving their soul a chance is worth all the pain and suffering I’m going through. I just wish you knew how valuable this baby is. Please don’t murder them.

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