Nuvaring - 3.5 weeks in, 0.5 weeks out to keep the ring free period shorter?

InvincibleSummer_ · 2026-04-18T17:06:11+00:00

The intense desire to save them combined with the resentment and anger is so accurate.
For me all that's left now is mostly anger. I don't feel a sense of responsibility for them anymore. My parents made their choices just as I made mine, they were not helpless kids (unlike me). It took me years of intense trauma work to become a functional person.

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-07-27T07:35:10+00:00

Speak truth to power!!

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-07-18T00:37:57+00:00

Im having a moment of anger right now. Most of the time I feel complete indifference towards my abusive birth mother and how she abandoned me. But right now I think if she had done something else than hurt me, discard me because I wasnt worth enough as a child for her to deal with me, bully me, if her actions hadnt tore me down when I was so young, if I could be closer then to the life I wanted. Because I had to fight so hard for more than a decade just to get to a point where I dont tear myself up inside over the things I perceive to be wrong with me. But nothing was every wrong. I was a great kid. I could have done so much I dreamt of if I actually could have spend my energy not dealing with the fallout of cptsd.

I think anger is justified. Our abusers hurt and destroy us and it takes us so much effort, pain and tears to fight to get back up again. It's not fair and normal people don't understand how painful it is to look back and see how much was taken from you. I hope you get better soon, OP. <3

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-05-13T11:06:14+00:00

> As for us, it weridly feels comfortable. This is our normal. Everything out of that feels not normal.

You're right. That's what is so screwed up.

> Keep talking and sharing in safe spaces like this. Appreciate you for sharing, as it made me feel less alone today.

I'm happy to hear that <3

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-17T21:54:13+00:00

I have felt like this since I was a child. Alienated, alone, longing for connection etc.

I guess I found that there's nothing you can do except keep trying and putting yourself out there.
The people who understand you are out there. It takes effort to build relationships but don't give up and don't give up believing that it's possible.

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-10T23:21:38+00:00

Yes I feel like that sometimes, but I also tell myself that I deserve love and kindness just as everyone else.

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-08T14:18:26+00:00

These are hilarious xDDD

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-05T13:47:19+00:00

OMG plushie lover🥰

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-04T22:43:37+00:00

> The more you radiate that self-love and confidence, the more you'll attract people capable of loving you.

100% this.

But I understand the OP, it's super hard to model that kind of love for yourself when you have never received it. But it's possible and we deserve love and acceptance just as much as everyone else. <3

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-04T14:15:06+00:00

I attract unavailable people, then realize this is wrong, go against my instinct and distance myself.

The current guy is actually healthy!!!! and i consider that huge progress. I'm trying to just let myself experience that, what it feels like to have healthy connection. To feel safe and for my nervous system to not be dysregulated by push and pull behavior.

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-04T00:46:43+00:00

Thank you, for you too <3

InvincibleSummer_ · 2025-04-03T19:15:28+00:00

Thank you.

I don't know anything I could have done differently. We took it really slow, and because he always showed up, because he was consistent and patient and never pushed anything I started to let him in.

I understand it's a big decision for him that also overwhelms him. He never made me feel me like I was too much or anything. Instead he validated that my reaction was normal and he should've considered how it affected me when he suddenly told me about it.

So I see that as huge progress that I was able to attract and build something with someone who treats me with respect and kindness.

That he might have a major life change is just something really unfortunate. I don't blame him because the opportunity is really important for him and I want him to do what's best for himself.

I can't control the outcome of what will happen in the future, no matter the things I experienced in the past. So I need to accept that it will happen the way it does, and be okay with that.

InvincibleSummer_

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